“Bette, I want to have a baby with you..and..and…fuck..I can’t, ugh I can’t.”  Bette looked at Tina and wanted to know what was torturing Tina so much.

“Tina, what is it?  I want that too babe?…Is it because of how we have to conceive?  I will carry the first babe..I always wanted to and…Tina, come here..Let me hold you baby..shh shh..it’s ok.”  Tina kept on sobbing and started to fall apart. 

“Bette..oh god..ok, my brother had offered to be the donor, so that it would be more like our child..and it just seems so wrong.  I don’t know how to talk about this at all.  Baby..I am sorry…please forgive me.”  Tina was balling and just felt ridiculously stupid for the whole idea entirely.  Bette sat up with Tina holding her..calming her down, whispering love and compassion..rubbing her back and soothing the pain away. Tina began to calm down and looked up at Bette.  Bette smiled at her and cupped her face.

“Tina, although your brother is greatly offered this, it is something I wanted to discuss with you.  IF that is what we want then ok.  I can see that you are not comfortable about it..and it is a bit different.  What if we worked with a cousin or?  DO you want to use your brother as a donor?”   Bette was fine with the idea, just the whole idea did seem a bit off kilter. 
“I don’t know Bette, it is weird right?  I mean the baby would be me and you…and that would be so awesome babe, but just kind of odd, we do agree on that.  It just seems different in choice that is all.”  Tina stared at their hands joined together..and felt relieved that the topic was talked about it.  “I can’t believe you want to carry the baby..the first.  I love you, B so much.”  Tina leaned in for a kiss, soft and loving.  Bette pulled Tina closer and not bringing the kiss more than just love and support.  Bette whispered in Tina’s mouth.  “mm baby..I love you, just you and whoever is the donor will make our lives more complete.  We will be the parents and that is all that matters.”  Tina smiled at Bette as she felt Bette caress her back and gave her tingles up her spine.  “T, I think we should practice how to make a baby…mmm come here.” 

Bette looked up at Tina as she held her..so much love and passion for Tina.  It was said there with no words, just a look of love and desire for one another.  Their unspoken love for each other, then shared desire for each other built up with their need for each other.  They loved each other that night and reclaiming each other for their love and desire for each other.  Using passion and their mouths on each, they each spoke without words for their need to connect and love each other.