“Look I just need to space to feel some stuff out and Eric being there was so bad timing for everything.  I am not in love with him, but I care about him.  I am hoping you understand that situation?  I am trying to be fair here and well, the whole thing is complicated and I understand you would want to leave or whatever.”  Tina was pissed again and turn to go.  Bette softly touched her shoulder.

“Tina, I can listen and I don’t want to go.  The situation sucks and timing too.  I am here to make sure you are alright and we can talk.  Want to just talk over something to drink or some ice cream?”  Tina had hoped it was strawberry and nodded at Bette.  They walked to the back yard of Tina’s house and sat at her pool lounging area.  Bette had thought she would have a kickball area and not this nice pool.  Bette pictured herself diving and doing some laps to cool down.

“How did you know strawberry was my fav?  I am going to drown in that shit.  I am sorry Bette I am just really fucking pissed off right now.  Nothing sounds right and well frankly….”  Tina looked at Bette and for whatever reason, she grabbed Bette and pulled her in for searing kiss.  Tina forced her tongue in Bette’s mouth and heard Bette moan.  Bette pulled away barely breathing.

“Tina, babe slow down breathe.”  She held Tina’s arms and looked into here eyes.

“I don’t know what to do..I..I it hurts and I want you at the same time, it doesn’t make any sense.  I knew Eric and I weren’t working out.  He would act never chivalrous or candid with me.  Just some macho guy sometimes.  I know it wasn’t about money.  He respects my work and how hard I worked to get there.  I know the sports thing is annoying to him.  He was more into working then working out together.  He likes football and baseball..and I love playing sports rather then watching them.  He wanted this perfect thing with us, both successful with our careers and got on well.  Laughed and liked same music and political interests.  I..just don’t know what fuck happened!”  Tina bawled as she explained her pain and revelation of what her relationship with Eric was..and was confused on how it wasn’t making Tina happy.  It would make a lot of other women happy, but not her.  Tina looked up at Bette and noticed that she just sat there and listened.  Tina’s knuckles were white from holding her shirt down and kept crying.