Love Is A Fragile Thing

I wonder how I am still hereI dont moveI sit staring at the oceanso calmno rageno furyno angerjust a small tideI watch it freely come and gojust as I see my life coming and goingWhat am I doing?I dont knowI really dont knowI guess Im searchingsearchingfor answers to my own questionsI continue staring at the waterI can smell the saltbut I can also taste the salt of my own tearstears of painregretsorrowlonelinessdisappointmentshame unhappinessthis is my time to think, to remember, to cry, to let myself break down no one can see my weaknesses no one can judge meI cry no one can hear my wailingno one can see my hurtmy chest aches as it feels my heart breakingIm not finishI feel more tears freely flowing down my cheeksit seems like there is a ball stuck in my throatstruggling to coming out in a frustrated scream

My Tee(crying)Im so sorry(Talking to no one but herself)..*****!!!

She begins pounding the sand with continuous frustration

I cant(she closes her eyes and memories of Tina and Helena holding handsshe cries)I cant fix us(Her shoulders slump in defeat)I will always remember you Teealways

She stands upshe looks at the rising sun Beautifulshe wants to walk into the waterto float and sink into the lonely deep waters of the Pacific Ocean to finally give up in total loss to win the heart of her love She falls to her knees Weak, she thinks to herselfshe shakes her head I cant even take my own life,she sheds a few more quiet tearsshes oblivious to the few people arriving at the beach

Come on Betteits another dayyou got through yesterdaysurely you can get through todaybreath in and out(she inhales and exhales)

She stands up and takes another deep breath and looks at the rising sun once againshe puts her head downturns around and walks back to her carto return to an empty houseonce again.