2004-

Bette and Tina had just arrived home after the grand opening of Provocations. Bette was taking off her shirt and was about to put it into the closet, when she saw the reflection of Tina in the mirror. She turned to look at Tina who was sitting on the ottoman with her knees together. I know came out of Tinas mouth. Tina slowly stood up, I saw you, Bette. Bettes heart felt like it was about to fall onto the floor beneath her. She ran over to Tina and put her arms around her. Tina reverted by furiously pushing Bette away, Dont touch me!! Bette mustered out the words, T, I love you. If there was anything Bette could do at that moment, she wanted Tina to know she still loved her. You love me? Were you telling yourself you love me when you were ***** her? Bette tried to put her arms around Tina again, T, I can explain. Truth was Bette could not explain. She didnt even know herself why she did it. I never want to see you again Tina said as she walked out of the bedroom. TIINNNAAA!!!! yelled Bette.

2005-

For days after that, I tried to find the point where I could have stopped myself. Times like that is when you learn who your true friends are. I know it must have been difficult on them. No one wanted to choose sides. But I was hurting too. I have all this guilt and I didnt know what to do with it. No one was there. They were all there for Tina. The only person who called was the person I hated most in this world. Why did I turn to her? It was because I felt like I had no one else. I just had all this built up emotion that I didnt know how to get rid of. I wanted that person to be Tina But it wasnt.

2004-

Bette.BetteYou have to get to the hospital quick. Its Tina. Was all Bette heard when she checked her voice mail message left from Alice. It had been almost six months since Bette had seen Tina. The day she left Bette could still play vividly in her mind. The thought that she still had nightmares about.

When Bette arrived at hospital she ran to the nurses station and hurriedly shouted, Tina Kennard! Where is she? The nurse sitting behind the desk tried to keep her patience with the overly excited Ms. Porter, Maam you will have to calm down. Ms. Kennard is in surgery. You will just have to wait. Surgery? What kind of surgery? What the ***** happened to her? Bette demanded. Im sorry maamYou will just have to wait. Just then, Bette heard a familiar voice shouting her name from across the room. Bette turned around to see Alice coming toward her. Bette, Bette there was an accident. Have you listened to the radio or the news at all? Alice said with a fatigued breath. No, Alice I havent what happened? Bette asked in a frightened voice. Alice hesitated before she started to speak There was a robbery at Downtown Federal Bank today. Three people were shot. Bette. Tina was one of them. Bette suddenly felt her whole world start to crumble.

After many hours had passed a tall, thin doctor came out to talk with Bette and Alice. Ladies, Im Dr. Lee. I was the performing surgeon today. This is never easy to do and I dont think there is an easy way to begin, so I am going to tell you the truth. Ms. Kennard passed away. The doctor looked at his watch, Six minutes agoIm sorry.

2005-

How do you get your life back together when everything that meant anything has gone so completely wrong? Where do you begin when you feel like you have nothing left? How do you start over? All the memories are still there but my T is not. I dont think I can muster up the strength to walk into that house, the home where we shared our lives and our love for all those years. I just dont know where to begin

I do not think I can begin again