She saw alice walking away and she closed the door. she went to kitchen to make some coffee, she was sure that she couldn’t sleep no more and she didn’t wanna see tonya who was sleeping in her bed. while making coffee she began to cry, softly.
“What the ***** was that” she thought “what happened? I mean that was alice!! alice!! your very good friend, she kissed you fairbanks!! and you kissed her back.. oh god..
I’m gonna marry tonya, am i? she started to think about everything, about tonya “is this a sign that marry with tonya is wrong, like alice said, i mean i don’t know her that good the engagement thing just happened after Mr. P died… damn..
Suddenly she thought about the moment she had with alice: who was there when Mr. Piddles died? Alice! And when i came out to two pieces of wood named after my parents, alice was right by my side! oh my god.. and now she kissed me and it felt good, so good.
it all became so clear to dana: this is more then just friendship, but friendship is sometimes a better thing than love, but what if…if.. this time love is taking over control, it doesn’t have to be a bad thing.. right? she thought.

While time passed by tonya walked in.
“sweetie are you okay?”
“Tonya..” dana said softly
Yes sweetie i’m here, are you okay? come back to bed please?’”
“uhm.. i.. think i.. no we need to talk or.. no nevermind i’m gonna sleep on the couch tonight cause..” Tonya interrupted her “sweetie what’s wrong”
Dana looked at her face and she knew, there was no chemistry between them, if she would stay the rest of her life with tonya she would be so unhappy cause something would be missing.. but what? could it be alice? Dana shaked her head “no no no this is… it’s going to fast, this is too much for me. i think this is not right.”
“What’s not right?? Tonya’s voice became angry
*****!! it’s alice right? tell me dana, it’s alice!”
“What?” dana said softly, confused by hearing alice’s name
“She was at the door right telling all kinds of stuff about not marry with me! cause she hates me! well i hate her too you can tell her that, she don’t want you to be happy with me!”
“No.. no alice wouldn’t say that but i mean i just think i’m not ready for this i mean my feelings are confusing i mean.. is this love? you and me we are together but is this how it must be?”
Tonya confused by dana’s words she almost screamed at her: well ***** you then you don’t know what you want and that woman is trying to ***** it up well it works cause dana… maybe i don’t know you that well at all make up your mind will ya?
She turns back to the bedroom and began to pack in her stuff.
Dana dropping herself on the couch didn’t knew what to say. this is too much for me it’s going way to fast, she thought. After 15 minutes tonya came back with all her stuuf in bags “I can tell you this dana, i’m leavng now, all that you had and all that you are is gone now, you’re nothing without me. ***** you!!”
Dana saw a different side of tonya she became an *****!
Dana replied sarcasticly: No thanks, will you leave now…?
as tonya left while leaving the door open,

Dana closed the door and starts to weep, after a few minutes she said softly to herself: “All that I have and all that I am is much more than you are tonya and i’m so much better off without you..”

End of chapter one