Carmen: Shane McCutcheon, I’m very seriously asking you. Will you be with me and just be mine?

Shane contemplated the question. She looked away from Carmen’s eyes.

Carmen: I can’t stand seeing you flirt with anyone else. And I know you were jealous that night.

Shane opened her mouth to protest, but Carmen put a finger on Shane’s lips.

Carmen: Can’t we just both be truthful for once?

Shane had been jealous. She’ll always be jealous. Oh fuck Bette, she was sleeping with a colleague too, why couldn’t she do it. Shane pushed her over onto the bed and kissed her. Carmen wrapped her arms around Shane’s neck. She was smiling from ear to ear.

Carmen: So I guess that’s a yes?

Shane nodded, defeated by her heart. She felt a wall crumble inside of her. Would she really be able to let Carmen in? Would it really be okay? She hadn’t love anyone after Shay’s accident. She couldn’t lose anyone close to her anymore. She couldn’t take it.

Shane: What would your father do if he knew you liked me and not his treasured godson?

Carmen looked up into her eyes. She never thought about Carlos like that. She never really told her dad in a serious manner about her sexual preferences. She remembered a girl though, her best friend. But she sort of just left. Nothing ever ended, Carmen had cried and got better and never thought much of it again.

Carmen: I don’t know. I never thought much about it. It was always for fun, never someone I wanted so much like this.

Shane kissed her on the forehead.

Shane: Well, will I have bullets through me?

Carmen: I hope not.

The two joked around laughing and rolling around on bed. There was a knock on the door and Shane got off of Carmen who made an angry face. She let go of Shane’s neck.

Carmen: Who is it?

Carlos: It’s me. I’m coming in.

Carlos opened the door. Shane’s clothes were all ruffled and Carmen’s hair was messed up. Shane’s tie was still on the bed too. Carlos cleared his throat. He went over and sat next to Carmen.

Carmen: You know usually people come in after they’re invited in. And get off my bed.