Crap! Shane’s looking at me. I can feel her eyes on me. Damn! I can’t think anymore. I know how to do this problem, but I cannot write a single thing down on my fucking paper. This sucks. Of course she’s not looking at my paper. I have enough faith on Shane, that she won’t cheat off of me. God! she’s looking at me again. Is there something on my face or do I look especially pretty somehow?!?!  Or was I that harsh with her earlier! 

 ’come on Carmen concentrate….’ I will apologize to her later. Right now I need to get this problem.

The bell rang. The table with the Asian girls and Cherie submitted their tests. 

 Mr. Krane: "Five more mins guys"

 I am done….on my way to Mr. Krane’s desk I see Shane is struggling with a problem, she’s real close to the answer just one more step, I totally would’ve told her the answer, but Mr. Krane is right in front of me. I put my paper on his desk and come back to my seat to get my stuff. 

 Cherie is standing in front of Shane, her paper is mostly blank, with occasional scribblings on it, and that half done problem. 

 Cherie: "Shane come with me now otherwise you won’t get a ride today plus I need to go to the club today and you need to clean the house today..if you remember"

 Shane: "yeah I am sorry Cherie just a sec, I am really close with this problem"

  Cherie: "one, done one sec is gone, Shane come on"

 Shane looks at the problem one last time and sighs and submits her paper and walks off with Cherie. I felt like punching Cherie. She’s such a bitch. And why’s she making Shane do all the household work? I feel soo bad I should’ve told her what was in the test instead of snapping at her. But she really needs to start keeping track.

 Later…

I saw her drinking water off the water fountain during a break in our cheer practice. 

 Shane looks up at me and smiles. 

 Carmen: "I am sorry for snapping at you before the math test"

 She stares at me and smiles her half smile.

   Shane: "It’s okay…I got kinda upset at first and after I saw the test I understood why you would be upset when I interrupted your study…It was soo fuckin’ hard." she laughed….I can’t help but be amazed by her forgiving nature. But the fact that she did get upset at me gave me butterflies in my stomach. People get butterflies in their stomach when some loves them not when someone’s mad at them. I guess I am just happy to know that she at least felt mad at me! if that makes sense ….at all!

 Shane: "I think your cheer has started"

 Carmen: "Oh yeah…okay bye"

 Shane: "Bye"

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 I was brought out of my trance by Shane’s husky voice….

 Shane: "hey there…are you listening?"

 Carmen: "Oh yeah sorry…I just zoned out for a while"

 Alice: " Well that was a long while"

 Dana: "Hey Shane, why don’t you sit with us today…Jenny is absent just take the seat beside Carmen"

 Shane looks at me..and I nod.. She gets her stuff and sits beside me. Surprisingly she actually stays awake, throughout the class and stares at Mr. Sharmen, because I have a feeling that she’s not too interested in the lesson. She laughs to Alice’s occational dirty Chem jokes and gossips. 

 I wish everyday could be like this…..not that I don’t like Jenny…but having Shane around is a different feeling….

 Tbc