I am sooo mad right now that I feel like I can burn the car parked in front of me just by staring at it. I say a quick bye to Clive and kinda slam the door and stomp into my room not caring that I am waking up the whole house by doing so. 

 Anna: "look who’s really hot today"

 Carmen: "hey I am really not in a mood right now"

 Anna: "okay okay…i was just asking… good night"

 Carmen:"sorry goodnight" and I kiss her on the forehead. before she walks out of my room. I just turn off my lights and drift off to sleep. 

 Next morning in English, Shane comes to me and starts talking about that crap english project of ours and I was not looking at her thoughts from what Clive said yesterday was still clouding my mind. She figures that I was not listening and her face comes down to meet my eyes almost like she’s about to kiss me. Instead she holds up my chin with her index fingure to face her eyes. 

 Shane: "What’s wrong?" and that voice oh my god….that voice makes me want to melt in her stare. 

 Carmen: "Nothing really…I don’t feel too well today"

 Shane: "its okay! nothing to worry about. I get it! maybe you’re just stressed out today..I can do the presentation myself today and next time we’ll do it together…aight?"

 I really like the way she calms me down and tries to fix the situation. I mean she wrote up the whole presentation anyways so might as well let her present it. we have a lot left for the final thing to put up. But I decide that I am not mad at her anymore. More like I can’t be mad at her anymore. Just too much. 

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 at lunch: 

 Alice: "so Carmen when are you gonna invite us to the club for your gig.."

 Oh my god how on moon did she come to know about that. I vaguely remember Juan telling me about it. 

 Carmen: "well I just thought its given that you guys are invited anytime I am spinning"

 Lara: "sorry guys I have work this weekend! can’t come"

 Carmen: "its okay just come to the next one"