"She…she gave me some advice actually"

"About what, how to survive to my sex attacks?"

"Oh, no. That advice would be useless to me… Can’t be saved, the one who doesn’t want to be saved…"

Rachel turned to face Alex, still keeping their bodies together, enjoying the strength of her embrace.

"I didn’t fuck anyone else but you, in the last year" she said in a huff.

Alex was really surprised by her confession.

"Really? and that stunning blonde girl in NY? You told me…"

"I lied"

"You…why?"

"I wanted to see your reaction." Actually, Alex felt a knife in her heart any time she imagined Rachel fucking someone else. But she wanted her so badly, she accepted every flirt as part of her nature, and she was just happy she always came back to her. The others simply didn’t mind, she belonged to her. That was just sex.

"I convinced myself that was just sex… and I should not worry about…about us.."

"About "us"? what’s "us" Alex. You’ve never told me. You…You’re always joking, and flirting, and the sex is…unbelievable… but… I think I need more…"

Alex could see clearly how they both came to the same point, and hated herself for being so stupid.

"I want someone who cares…" Rachel’s anger faded away, and she was holding back tears.

Before she could go on, Alex lifted her chin and looked her in the eyes.

"I love you"

Rachel opened wide her green eyes, and lost words.

"I love you" Alex repeated, to let the truth finally get her heart. "I’ve always done. I… I tried…to be your fuck-buddy, when that seemed the only form of relationship you were going to accept…"

"Alex…I thought it was you, who didn’t want another relationship. I mean…I could understand how much you’d been hurt.."

"Yes… but that’s nothing compared to losing you…I’m not scared any more to admit that. I love you Rachel, and I want to stay with you for the rest of my life"

Rachel felt her heart exploding. She had tried so hard with Dylan, since she believed she could really be the one able to let her forget about that impossible relationship with Alex. She had also noticed Alex’s jealousy about Dylan was some kind different compared to when she spoke about some meaningless chick. But she had to give up, because Dylan was in love with Helena, and because she finally realized that she would have been just a second choice. And both herself and Dylan did not deserved to have or be a second choice. She was lost in her thoughts when felt Alex backing a little.

"I’m sorry…I’m drunk and.."

"What…Alex wait…" She would not let her escape.

"I love you too, Alex. I was caught by surprise. Oh…I’ve been so stupid"

"I’ve been rather stupid myself. Thanks to Dylan I finally realized I can’t hide my feelings forever."

"So, that’s the advice she gave you? I guess I should thank her tomorrow…"

"I think she learned so much from her own mistakes. I hope she and her girl will be able to pass over what she fucked up in the past"

"I really hope so, but…let’s stop talking about Dylan now…can we…?"

She kissed her sweetly, and soon the kiss got deeper and Alex started to touch her. She knew exactly where to touch, the pressure, the rhythm, everything was so right. "I love you" She repeated again, and they finally started to explore the difference between fucking hot sex and mind-blowing love making…