Were you ever planning on telling me about him? Shane asked, and she lifted her head up to look at Carmen. Carmen kept silent for a moment, seeing the pain in Shanes eyes. I really wanted to tell you, Carmen whispered, But I couldnt.. I just couldnt find the words. I didnt want to disappoint you or hurt you and then I got back and I was just so happy that I hadnt really thought about it. Carmen reached her hand out to touch Shanes cheek, trying to hide her hesitation. Im sorry. It was wrong.

Shane sighed and shook her head, her eyes downcast. I just really dont know what to think of this Carm, it seems like.. like youre living this two lives and.. fuck.

Im not living two lives, Carmen objected weakly.

You are. When youre with your family you are someone else.

Carmen kept silent, and looked out the window. She knew Shane was right, but she didnt want to admit it. Carmen sighed and raked a hand through her hair. Its not like I want it that way. I just dont have a choice. I dont want to lose them but I especially dont want to lose you, Carmen said softly. Youre not losing me, Shane reassured her sweetly, resting her hand on Carmens knee. So you still like me? Carmen asked hopefully. Shane chuckled and winded her arm around Carmens shoulders, Yes silly, I still like you. She drew Carmen in for a hug, resting her chin on Carmens head. Im sorry, Carmen said, her words muffled against Shanes chest. Its okay. I shouldnt have run off the way I did. I just.. freaked out, Shane said. I understand. I wouldve freaked out as well. Lets just go home, Carmen said, holding her back tightly. Shane kissed her temple before letting her go and turned on the ignition. Carmen opened the door, Im with Jennys car. So I guess Ill see you in a bit, she said as she moved to get out of the car. Shane grabbed her wrist and pulled her back in, covering Carmens mouth with her own in a lingering kiss. See you soon, she murmured when their lips parted. Carmen smiled as she stepped out and closed the door.