“I know that I am not ready to have sex with you – even if I knew what I had to do to make you come – its scares me. But it doesn’t scare me like it did when kissing you was just another fantasy of mine. I have spent too long just existing in fantasies and dreams. I want the reality and that is your sweet, sweet lips “

Tina touched Bette’s face “You are so special “
“Yeah “ Bette said “ Been there – been told I am “special “ – I want to be SEXY “

She laughed at herself. Tina smiled and pulled Bette closer again- they kissed for a few minutes until Bette ended the kiss

“Tina – its okay – we are not going to end up in bed today – not unless we both get boozed up and that would be wrong. I don’t want to be bombed when I sleep with you – I want to be wide awake and fully experiencing everything about being naked with you and touching you. We are both going to have to come up for air but that’s okay – cake and kissing – that sounds like we could pass a lot of hours that way”

“I know you are scared too – you seem to hide it better”
Bette looked at Tina and reached out a hand and touched the blonde’s face

“I am utterly terrified – terrified that I am so far out of my depth I might get the bends but I am also scared in case I mess this up. This morning – I wanted to be wearing my PJ’s when you showed up. But my crazy head took over and I had to get up, have a shower and get dressed. I couldn’t even put my pyjamas back on again. It just was starting to make my skin creep”

Tina took the hand that was resting on her face

“Its okay -I told you it was no big deal and I meant it. “
“I just worry that you are going to get fed up with me and my weirdness”

Tina could see that this was going to have to be dealt with

“Now listen Bette – there is nothing weird about you – I see you for who you are – this fantastically kind, fantastically sexy and loving girl who I am so lucky to be dating. I don’t want anyone else. Don’t you think there was just fate involved with us finding one another. Our parents haven’t spoken in decades – we went to different schools and suddenly we are not only in the same school but the same class – both of us at a point in our lives when we are coming to terms with our sexuality – I just think that you and I are meant to be and parents feuds and your little quirks don’t add up to a hill of beans because you and I are meant to be together “