She reflected at times on that relationship. Despite what she wanted to believe, she frequently had to face the fact that Dylan was probably her last love or at least her last major crush. Occasionally, thoughts of Dylan would steal into her consciousness when she saw things that reminded her of Dylan. Certainly, it was her last major heartbreak. It was a fast and furious, an ill-fated relationship that spiraled Helena’s life totally out of control. The fall-out from it and the other poor, all-be-it well meaning, choices left her penniless and homeless. From Dylan she landed into the bed of a compulsive gambler that treated her like a sex slave. From there she bounced or rather was thrown into a stark and cold prison cell where she landed into the arms of a tax evader who looked on the surface like a serial killer. Yes, her last set of lovers made her think deeply about why she failed so badly in her choices in women. For fear of making another bad choice, she simply chose to not choose.

She examined this in her bi-weekly sessions with her therapist. To not repeat her mistake with her last therapist, she selected an elderly male therapist who reminded her of her beloved grandfather Peabody. They did get some break through with the thought that Helena was seeking the love and approval from women that she never got from her mother. Believing she would not get this love or approval she chose the most unlikely candidate to give her success. In essence, every woman perpetuated her failure. Her response to this insight was to now remain distant and uncommitted.

She however was very committed to her work. She was proud of her new found business accomplishments. You could easily find her working with her chefs to create a new fresh taste for the restaurant. She wanted to separate her image from that of her mother’s. She needed to show the world and herself she was indeed her own women. Her mother had turned over a few million dollars in a trust fund for her current needs and dreams. Yes, she would eventually inherit control of billions but much of it would remain in the Peabody businesses. What additional she would inherit she planned to give away to various foundations and to set up trusts for her children. She enjoyed the benefits of her mother’s wealth but she did not it to bind her as it had previously had done. She took only what she needed to create her own dreams and her own businesses.