Helena laughed sarcastically. Her temper began to rise as she glared at Dylan, “What are you going to explain. Do you think you can explain your lies, your deception, your public humiliation of me? How humiliating did you think it was for me to watch that video of us? There it was the video of us making love being analyzed by my mother, your fucking boyfriend and a bunch or attorneys.  Do you know how fucking painful that was. And what did you say, nothing. Absolutely nothing! No, you did have one thing to say, that you never wanted to see me again. That was all you had to say to me." Helena threw her hands up in the air and walked away. "That statement has played over and over in my head in the past two years. ‘Helena, I never want to see you again.’”

 Dylan stood silently at the door. Again words failed her. She wanted more than anything to reach out and touch Helena but she knew this was impossible. Looking at Dylan in the mirror Helena added, “Dylan, I can’t imagine what you could ever say to me to explain away that pain.” Her anger took over all the advice she had just received from her friends. She turned around and made her way to walk out the door. “Now, please get out of my way Dylan.”

Dylan saw the pain and anger in Helena’s eyes. She looked away knowing she could not bear to have Helena look at her this way. As Helena passed by her she said softly, “Helena, I know you might never forgive me. I accept that. I accept that I made the biggest mistake of my life when I listened to Danny and went along with his scheme. I can’t expect you to forgive me, when…frankly, I’ve never forgiven myself for it. But let me a least tell you about what got me to that awful place of lying to you. Let me tell you what I felt then, and what I’ve been feeling these past two years.”  Dylan took a deep breath and continued, “There is so much I want to tell you. I’ve thought about you every day. I think about what happened…I think about us. I think about…”she closed her eyes and dared to continue. “I think about being in a room like this and the first time I touched you and felt you and made you…”