«WHAT?!?! » Alice yelled almost dropping her cup of coffee.

After regaining from the shock, Alice learnt from Tina all the details of their ‘affair’. The older woman told her about the kiss at the SheBar and their ‘hot’ encounters. Needless to say that Alice didn’t kown whether to be happy to hear that or not.

           «Oh God, how did that happen? » her jail dropped.

           «I don’t know, I don’t know what the fuck we’ve been doing. The only thing I know is that I can’t do this anymore. Apparently, Bette wants to be with Jodi… she’s using me. She kissed me; I don’t deny that I wanted it too, but I didn’t have anything to lose. She was and is in a relationship with someone. At first it looked like she wanted to be with me, you know it seemed she was going to end it all with Jodi and be with me. But then she told me she couldn’t do this to Jodi, because she was becoming the same person who destroyed us. And what about me? I feel like a fucking fool because I believed she was going to left her… oh and then, remember the night at The Planet? When I rushed into the bathroom and then left? Well, we had… actually she did me in the restroom… »

           «Oh my fucking God! »

           «Yes, I know… that night, in the restroom, she told me that she couldn’t help herself. I told her we can’t do this anymore and I don’t want to break up her and Jodi, and wanna know what she said? She said ‘what if I want to?’ – But she’s still with Jodi though»

           «Maybe she’s scared? »

           «Of course she is, I am scared too… but the thing is, spare me this pull me push me thing. It hurts» she is on the verge to cry. «I don’t want to do this anymore. I don’t want to be her ‘Candace’, that’s not fair. I know I hurt her too, but Jesus I have a heart; I’m not something she can use and throw away whenever she wants to… Fuck, I love her! »

           «I know baby, come here» she held a now crying Tina. «Good girl, let it go, I got ya»

As she finally managed to gather herself together, she sniffed «That’s why I need to go away. I can’t stand the view of them together, neither the fact that one day or another we’ll end up in bed again whilst she’s still with Jodi. This is an affair… I don’t want this. I know we started it together; I am as guilty as her… But I was a fool to believe that it could be that simple»

           «So you decide to go to New York» Alice lifted her eyebrows.

           «That’s the only way to be away from her»

           «I know but… Tina you two have a child together, you can’t take her away from Bette»

           «And what am I supposed to do? This situation is killing me here, I just need some time» she shook her head, «Fuck, I am doing this. It’s my decision. I am going to NY and Angie is coming with me. We’ll see what to do with the co-parenting thing»

           «This is a so fucked up shit, Tina» the blonde woman sighed.

           «Mm-mm» the other blonde nodded, sipping some coffee.

           «And this is not going to be easy… you know Bette, she won’t let you do this»