That night was the night when both of them finally faced the truth about their real feelings but didn’t admitted it until the day after. At the party Tina had the courage to ask Bette about her feelings for Jodie. Somehow that night, the two of them managed to be disonest with one another and most of all with themselves.«Are you sorry that it did?» Bette asked, talking about the kiss they shared some nights before at the She Bar.
«Yes, I am.»
«Are you in love with Jodie?» Tina asked, hoping in a negative response.
«Yes, I am.»

Two identical replies. Both so untrue.
The former couple didn’t know how to deal with what they were feeling at that moment. Something so strong and at the same time so scary. Scary because none of them knew if the other one was feeling exactly the same way. So the logical conclusion was to lie and pretend like nothing happened.
Plus there was a third person: Jodie. Tina didn’t want to be the one to split them up. She has been there. She knew how it feels to be betrayed.
But it was so damn difficult.
How can you possible deny the love for your soulmate?

After that last reply, Tina lost any support in her legs. She felt her own world and hopes fall apart. She lost her love. She lost Bette.
That hurt. Watching her, holding hands with another woman.
It mostly hurt the fact that the one who decided to leave Bette, back in the day, had been her. ‘Sometimes I think I made a mistake’. That’s what she said several days before. Before Jodie came in and saw Bette and her sharing a light kiss. She felt her own heart skip a beat. She really lost her.

The only thing she managed to do, after that little conversation, at the party was to go back inside. Not able to walk and stand up on her own legs she sat down for a few minutes then decided to lose herself joining her friends that were dancing and singing. Those pot brownies Shane made were having effect. She found herself dancing and singing as well. No more Bette in her thoughts until they made their way out and approached the pool.
«That used to my pool» she whined.
Everything that night was able to bring Bette in her head.