chapter 4

THE NEXT MORNING..
-they meet up together in the front of the place where tina’s body is going cremate.. They just waiting outside because tina’s father is stopping them to go to tina’s cremation area..  No one wants to talk, they just standing waiting.. After an hour they finally saw tina’s parents carrying a beautiful vase.. From that moment bette’s tears starting to welled up again, not only her but also tina’s friends.. Alice, dana, Helena, shane and kit.. Still couldn’t believe that tina passed away..

“here is some tina’s ashes.. Please take care of it..” mrs. Kennard give a small yet a special vase to kit..  They look at each other and smile at mrs. Kennard..

“thank you mrs Kennard.. For giving us the opportunity to make our own ceremony for tina..” Helena said then she hugged tina’s mother..

-after that mrs Kennard ride in the car without looking at the others, bette is still not talking and not looking at the vase that tina’s mother just gave,

“we better go..” alice suggest and all of them nodded except for bette… she just look at her friends and sister then she run away.. Shane is going to follow bette but kit stop her.. “she needs to be alone.. And get over with this..”  And then they go to arrange tina’s ceremony.. In their own and special way..

-bette  just run and run.. The only thing she wants to do is to turn back the time.. The time when tina is still alive, hugging and kissing her, the time when she held tina in her arms… bette just kept on running for who knows where and how long.. her face flushed, tears running in her face never ceasing to stop, not really knowing  what she was going to do.. It doesn’t matter to her anymore.. She could no longer think properly, it was she was gripped by a very strange yet a strong feeling of fear, total and complete loss… then suddenly she realized that she had stopped running and was standing in the park where she and tina made their promise to each other, a place where tina is still alive holding, touching and kissing bette.. She sat on the ground and broke up into a heavy sobs, then suddenly it rains.. its like the heaven is joining in her deep sorrow and grief..
“WHY??!!! You PROMISE yOU WON’T LEAVE ME.. YOU PROMISE!!!.. THEN WHY???!!!! Tina.. I can‘t make it.. I need you,.. ” bette cried hugging herself… then she look up and shout at the heaven..
“YOU UP THERE!!! WHY MY TINA?? WHY IT HAS TO BE HER??!!! BRING HER BACK!!! PLEASE!! PLEASE!!! Please bring her back.. I need her.. Please..” bette plead to the heaven still believing that everything is just a dream or worse yet some kind of a horrible nightmare.. but its not.. Tina her tina who is the only one who had been able to break the walls around her heart, the one that change her in just a short period of time, tina who had not only captured her  heart but also love her with all her being is now gone and will never… ever… come back again… in her life…

MEANWHILE…
-alice, shane, dana, Helena and kit go to the buildings rooftop, they decided to make tina’s ash vanished into the air.. So that tina will going to be free like the wind.. They wait a little while because its still raining that makes them to feel more sadness, pain and heartache..  

“tina.. I will never forget  that there is someone like you came into my life, and teach me a lot of things.. Thank you.. “ dana said while the tears is running in her face, can’t take and accept that her friend is gone..

“thank you for everything that you do, for the times that your always there when I need you,.. Tina.. Im gonna miss you..” Helena added, she don’t have any tears to cry.. You can see the pain and sadness in her eyes..

“tina, I hope that your happy wherever you are, im not going to forget you, ill cherish the memories..” alice said wiping her tears that is not stopping..

“I know your listening tina, its very hard for us to accept that your gone.. Were just starting our friendship, im gonna miss you..” shane said and hugging alice to support each other..

“tina.. Im very happy that I met someone like you in my life, someone who is kind, understanding, loving.. Thank you for everything you’ve done..” kit said still remembering the time when bette bring tina to their house and they had a small yet a wonderful and happy talk…
“ you’re always be in our hearts…” they said in chorus…

TBC… 

PS: this story is just starting..