” Why?”

 “Because I can have you whenever I want”

 “Bette you make it sound like you own me or something, that’s not really the way to get into my pants”

She laughed “What I mean is that you never seem to be able to resist the Porter charm”

“pfff that’s not true, I can totally resist the so called Porter charm”

“Ok sweetie, we’ll just see about that” She chuckled as we pulled in to the parking lot. 

The therapist’s name was Miranda Collins, she was a slim woman in her fifties with short blonde hair. She greeted us and we followed her in to her office. She had a big couch and two chairs located in the middle of the room and the walls were covered with beautiful paintings. I saw Bette look around with an impressed look on her face and I couldn’t help but chuckle at her. We sat down on the couch as Miranda took a seat in one of the chairs.

“So Tina, as you know I spoke with Bette yesterday and she filled me in on your situation” she started.

“You are struggling with bulimia, is that correct?” she asked looking at me.

“Yes” I answered in a low voice as Bette took my hand in hers.

“How long have you two been together?” she asked.

“Seventeen months” Bette smiled.

“How long have you known about Tina’s condition?

“She just told me the night before yesterday”

“That must have been hard for you Tina, keeping this secret from Bette for so long” she said looking at me.

“Yes, it was really hard” I stated softly.

“Whose idea was it to come here?” she asked looking at us

“It was my idea” Bette said

“Did you want to come here Tina?”

“I don’t know” I said, looking down at the floor.

“So what made you agree to come?”

“It was important to Bette” I said glancing over at Bette.

“It wasn’t important to you?”

“I don’t know…”

“Tina, if you don’t want to help yourself, there is no way that anyone else will be able to either” she said in a serious tone.

“Do you want to help yourself Tina?”

I hesitated before answering “Yes, I don’t want to live like this anymore…I’m just scared”

“What are you scared of?

“I don’t know…that I won’t be able to stop…that I will disappoint Bette” as I said this Bette squeezed my hand.

“Tina, I know that this is a scary thing and it is ok to be afraid, but you can’t let that fear control you or your life” Miranda stated seriously.

TBC