Immediately Tina sat up straight and went on the defensive, “You don’t know anything about me Bobbi.” she said her eyes still drawn down towards the blanket they sat on.

“Chris, you been here a little over a week and you never talk about money or your job, it’s almost as if it’s of no consequence to you, you didn’t bring any clothes and still you don’t worry about not having anything, you buy as you see fit, you told me you house your car in a very expensive rental unit which tells me that, that is the one “luxury” you allow yourself to have, when in all actuality you deserve it. Obviously you run your own business and you trust people way to easily.” Tina was continuously shaking her head as every sentence was a direct reflection of who she was. “I see you,” Bobbi lifted her crying eyes to see hers “I see you Tina.” the first time in a week she actually called her Tina; it was something to it that dug that much more deeper into Tina’s core.

“Come on Tina tell me what happened to you?”

“I don’t know somewhere between college and now I really forgot what I used to feel like. I really don’t remember what was I like in high school, I just remember being free and allowing myself to just live. If I saw something in high school that I wanted I went after it until I had it, I was even considered ruthless at times, ya know?”

“So what happened that changed all that? Where do you think you lost the Tina you used to be?”

“I don’t know.” Tina said looking back up at Bobbi and seeing someone completely different from the joyful bartender she’d known.

“Tina something must’ve happened to change you from the “ruthless” goal oriented person to what you are today? You know what happened, just give it a voice.”

Tina sat and thought about most of what made her lose a bit of herself day by day, what major change happened in her life that shrunk her down to what she was today. She thought back to the days when she was strong and passionate about so many things, but as of lately her work was the only reason she got up in the morning. But she used to enjoy life and feel confident about everything within herself. But it was the reality of Justine’s true nature that drew her inward and away from what she wanted.