Bette huffed as she began, “So far as I can tell. Lonely. But it has potential.” she finished with a wink.

Tina immediately felt guilty, “Bette I never meant for you to move across the country to get away from me. I never thought that you would ever need to get away from me.”

“Tina, I’m a grown woman. There are other ways to avoid someone, other than moving across the country. And less costly might I add.”

“I know but…” Tina tried with sympathetic eyes.

“No buts Tina, I did this because it’s good for my career. And I needed a new place to change my music a little bit. Long before this whole thing happened I felt the music becoming stagnant and commercial. No matter how hard I looked for the sound it just came out the same in the end. But the exec’s loved it and so did my bank account. But at the end of the day my name was going out there on a lot of things that did not have my heart behind it.” Bette finished looking sad and disappointed in herself. Before Justine and Tina’s life became a priority, before the realization that her relationship with Toya was ending hit full force she felt her music lacking it’s usual originality and provocative sound. She just couldn’t see it until Tina left and all that was left was her music, which to her now sounded like commercialized shit. Hopefully with this new city she would find a renewed sound for herself and music that truly expressed who she was.

“It’s not just that Bette. I feel like I don’t know me anymore, ya know. I’m slowly but surely getting back to me but there are some things I know I’m to scared to even approach.”

“Like what T?” she asked still softly stroking Tina’s hands hoping that she wouldn’t lose her in a field of self doubt again.

With her now glazed over and fixed eyes on the outside happenings she replied softly, “You.”

The cold hesitation in her voice made Bette shudder with disbelief, “Tina you flew all the way out here on your own. Without any real assurance that I would be receptive. I don’t think you’re really scared of me.”