"No, no, no Sweetie I know you didn’t know, really it’s ok. I mean it’s not ok, but it is what it is, ya know?" Bette nodded and let Tina continue, "Anyway when I found out I was… I don’t know what." she stumbled. "But I couldn’t look at her, I had to get away from her before I did something else to her. I could feel it in my hands that I was going to hurt her. So I got up and I felt like crying, like my body was telling me to cry. So i got to the car and I sat there for a while, and I sat, and I sat and still nothing. So drove over to the marina and I sat in the car for a little while longer trying to figure out what was wrong with me, why couldn’t i feel anything. I felt like i should be angry, pissed, hurt, emotional, ya know just a broken mess or whtever, but still nothing. Almost the entire time the only thought I had in my head was whether or not I already picked up our dry cleaning and then whether or not I should make those garlic potatoes you like." Tina said smiling at her own odd thoughts.

"Wait…, What?" Bette said laughing and pulling Tina’s hands away from her blushing face. "That’s…"

"Crazy i know." Tina shouted and couldn’t help the laugh that followed.

"I’m not following, Sweetheart."

"I’m sitting in the car trying to will my body to get angry or cry and I just started laughing. And I couldn’t stop, I’m sure the people that walked past the car thought I was crazy. But I stopped laughing and I thought that something must be wrong with me, I can’t feel, I can’t cry, I can’t think. I mean that’s not normal right. So I took a walk and that when I figured out what it was I was feeling, I don’t care. That’s it I just don’t care anymore."

"So you weren’t upset?" Bette had to ask, she still didn’t know one way or the other.

"Not in the least. I should’ve been livid right? But nothing, I started to laugh some more, scaring more people I’m sure. Then I thought about how much I couldn’t wait to get home to you. I like being here with you. You make me unbelievably happy. I haven’t felt this good in a long time and I know a major part of this you." Tina said and kept her eyes focused on Bette’s as she kissed her small finger and placed her hand on her warm cheek. "I’ve filled my heart with loving you so much there’s no room for her to hurt me anymore. It’s a glorious feeling, it really is." she beamed out. "I love you, undeniably. Thank you."

TBC………………………………………………..