“Bette are you hearing and understanding Tina’s point of view?”

“I do; I really do. But we can’t hold this family back because of fear and unrealistic situations that might happen again. I could get into a car accident, we could get robbed. That doesn‘t mean that we stop driving or living our lives as usual. ”

“Oh Jesus.” Tina huffed out as she rolled her eyes at Bette and turned back around facing the other direction. “Are you even hearing yourself? What is this a self help seminar?” Tina said turning back around now really upset with this conversation and having to repeat herself. She sat facing Bette even more upset than before. “You could die! You almost died, your heart stopped! Do you hear me, stopped completely! I had to watch as these people worked frantically to bring you back to life, and if we have to sacrifice the expansion of this family in order for you to survive then so be it. We already have these great three little lives that count on and depend on the both us to be there for them, and I find it incredibly selfish that you are willing to gamble and possibly sacrifice their experience with a great mother just to prove the odds wrong.”

Bette had to stop herself from saying something else as she really now started to hear Tina’s line of thought. She sat back and began rubbing her brow thinking over every point brought up today. All of them never held as much weight as the last.

　

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After the session the ride home was quiet, neither of them were angry they just now saw everything from the other’s prospective and it was shocking to say the least. They arrived home and Tina immediately went outside to work out her tensions in the pool. Bette on the other hand locked herself away in her studio again. The kids were still with Shane and Carmen for the day and they weren’t going to pick them up until later.

Bette sat at her piano stroking the keys softly, although her mind wouldn’t let go of Tina’s strong statement from earlier. She never thought that by wanting another baby so badly she would be considered selfish. Her whole thought process was run through the wringer today and her mind just wanted to let go and not think about anything at all. She was still absent mindedly playing the piano and when she finally tuned into what her hands were playing she smiled for the first time that day. Her mind was taken back to the same song she’d written for Tina years ago. The same song that gained her fame and countless accolades from her peers, made her smile as she continued to play each touching note. She closed her eyes as she remembered Tina’s face when she played it for her for the first time. Their big floor to ceiling windows bathing their home in a warm and soft pre-sunset glow behind Tina’s smiling face as she sang to her made her heart stagger. This same piano they’d sat at in their Philadelphia home, the same piano they’d shared countless kisses over. Where Tina told Bette that she loved every note of the song she’d immortalize for her. Her mind and body was taken back to how afterwards Tina kissed her with such passion and tenderness that she made love to her right there on and off the piano bench.