“No I’m fine I had a busy day today. I was trying to get a hold of my best friend, but it seems that avoiding me is easier than talking to me.” Tina said nudging Bette a little.

“Tina I’m sorry I never meant to…” She sighed, “I never meant to avoid you or make you feel bad it’s just that I got a lot of things to think about right now. You know between the job and the move my head is not my own lately. Ya know?”

“No I know what you mean. But there used to be a time when I was always there to take those burdens with you. But it seems as though you’re slowly pulling away from me. What’s up?”

Bette looked at Tina and saw the genuine sincerity that was always there when she needed her. Somehow she just couldn’t bring herself to tell her the truth. There was no way that she could be the one to bring that much pain upon her world.

“I uh.. I’m thinking… I’m thinking about accepting that job offer in Philadelphia. I think it would be a good move for me.” She finished and saw the look on Tina’s face and it broke her heart that much more. “But there’s so much keeping me here.” Bette finished and saw that little smile creep up on Tina’s face. “But it’s a great little start up for me, ya know? I’ll get to be in the heart of all that raw soulful talent. It’s an amazing start for me.”

“No I know what you mean. But you have to think about it from every angle. And you gotta know that we’ll always be here. No matter what happens or where you go we’re still be one big, crazy, dysfunctional, loving family.” Tina finished with a smile and a small yawn.

“See I told you, you were sleepy. Go lie down, I’m just going to lay here for a while. Then I‘ll go when my head clears.”

“Good then you won’t mind me laying here with you.” Tina laid down, with Bette cuddling up to her as usual. They usually slept like this when they wanted to feel the other person and not break the connection they had at the time. Bette came to cherish moments like this more and more as they were becoming few and far between.