“Tina I don’t think I can be there and let this happen. I can’t stand by your side and watch you commit yourself to Justine for a lifetime,” Bette was falling apart her voice was cracking and her heart was pounding so hard it made her a little bit dizzy “I just can’t do it! I’m sorry.”

Bette tried to walk away and Tina grabbed her arm forcing her to turn around and see the pain in her eyes at that bold and forceful statement.

“You can’t walk away from me like that Bette! You have to tell me why, why can’t you support the same way I would support you!” Bette was facing Tina and her heart was screaming at her mind to tell the truth and release the demons that ate at her everyday. Bette was holding her teacup and her lips were poised to speak but she just couldn’t find the words to express her true feelings.

Tina grew exasperated by Bette’s need to hide from her. She never had these problems before now. Tina released Bette’s arm and grabbed her coat off the couch and headed for the door. Something inside Bette made her move towards Tina, she knew if she let her walk out that door and away from her there would be no getting through to her.

Just as Tina got the door open just a crack Bette slammed it shut with her arm pressed against the top and her body leaning towards the door. Her head hung low and was pressed against Tina’s back. Tina’s body was still, she still wanted to know why her best friend was so distant from her, and why their friendship had become so suddenly strained. They stood like that for awhile with the only sound Bette could hear was Tina’s breaths mixed in with the heavy beating of her heart. Tina could hear Bette trying to fix her heavy and deep breathing.

With cold hands and a nervous heart, Bette grabbed Tina’s hips to turn her around and face her. Bette saw Tina’s tear stained face and it broke her heart that much more. Tina’s eyes were red and puffy, and it hurt to think that Bette had contributed to the pain that resided in them. Bette dropped her head to the floor again.

“Just talk to me Bette. I’m right here. I’m not going anywhere.” she said softly stroking the side of Bette’s head. Trying so desperately to soothe away the pain she was trying so hard to hide away from her. Bette brought her head up once more and looked so deeply into her eyes, a feeling so deep inside of her urged her to speak, but she still couldn’t. So like an instinct she rushed forward and captured Tina’s lips with hers. Forcing Tina to back against the door with her body. Her hands were up above her body and her mind was in a frenzy over what was happening. Bette’s body was pressed hard against Tina’s and her hands were pulling her hips towards her.

Tina was caught off guard and it scared her, at first. But like an instinct she accepted the kiss and pulled Bette tighter into her with her arms wrapped around her neck and wrapped one leg around her waist. Bette’s hand released Tina’s hip and began stroking the thigh that was pressed so hard against her hip. The kiss was brash, forceful, passionate, vigorous, intense, dominating, and everything that was stirring up in Bette was released in that kiss alone.

TBC……………………………………..