She sat beside her silently.  ‘Want to tell me about it?’

Alexa wondered if she should, feeling disloyal to Helena.

‘C’mon what is said out here stays out here, I promise,’ said Rachel, reading her expression.

‘Tina it’s so confusing.  Helena and I had this amazing talk last night about how we want to make this work between us and how could we do that on different continents so in a way it makes sense for me to move here but it’s going to take a whole lot more consideration and sorting out and Helena she just practically tried to strong arm a doctor friend of hers into giving me a job and that’s not the way I want to work.’

Tina sighed, if not in the exact same scenario, she had been there before.  ‘It’s hard, dating influential women who are used to getting what they want.  Helena has the same thing Bette has only magnified with more money, they both think if they can make something easier for you they should just do it, what they don’t realise is we need to know that we’re worth something in our own right without their help, even more so because they’re so good at what they do.’

Alexa nodded, glad for Tina’s insight. 

‘I know Helena means well but I’ve worked so hard for my degree, without a lot of finance or family connections like other people in my class.  The other day I found out I got the most competitive job in my graduating class. I earned that on my own terms.’

Helena and Bette stood outside the door listening to them talk.  ‘That’s a big deal to give up, are you sure you want to move here?’ asked Tina.

Alexa hesitated.  ‘Right now I just don’t know but not because I doubt my feelings for Helena.  It’s just what if I move here, give up everything I’ve ever known and a few months down the track she realises that I don’t fit into this world like Katharine did, that maybe I’m not the kind of girl who can stand beside her at a different party every night and work the room like a pro.  When I’m at home my average night is take out and TV not galas and galleries.  Sometimes it’s all just so overwhelming.’