Alexa sighed, Helena was starting to piss her off with her blasé attitude.  ‘Well it is a little stressful Helena, we have to be careful.  What are you going to say if she asks about me today?’

‘That we spent all last night fucking so there really is no way you could make it in today.’

Alexa smirked slightly.  ‘Ok now give me the real version.’

‘I’m serious,’ Helena laughed.  ‘If she asks me too many times today I’ll tell her just that.’

‘Ok now I’m definitely coming in,’ said Alexa grabbing her robe.

‘Alexa!’ said Helena astonished by her overreaction.  ‘This honestly isn’t a big deal.’

‘This is a big deal Lena.  I could be thrown out of med school for this not to mention the fact it would officially out me.’

‘Would the latter be such a terrible thing?’ asked Helena shrugging. 

‘You know how things are for me,’ said Alexa in frustration.  ‘I can’t just change it all in a day.’

Helena just looked at her as if questioning the statement.  She didn’t know how far she could push this but she wanted to try.

‘Don’t look at me that way Helena, like you know what’s best for me.’

Helena was starting to get a little angered herself.  ‘You’ve had five years with these people Alexa, just how long do you plan to wait?  I mean I know this is hard but..’

‘No you don’t Helena!’ said Alexa.  ‘You live here in lesbian fucking utopia but I have to go back in less than a week to a place where people don’t just carry on the dinner conversation if you announce you’re gay.’

‘You don’t live in fucking Iran, no-one is going to stone you in the streets.’

Alexa turned to face Helena in anger.  ‘You know what Helena, go to work and tell fucking Fiona, fuck with my whole life why don’t you as long as it gives you a second’s amusement, it’s worth it hey?’

Helena hated what she was implying, that she was a little rich girl with nothing better to do, that she would betray her like that, that they were even having this conversation, that Alexa made her feel so damn raw and guilty.