Jenny snaps back, “Then follow it though.” Carman nods and gets up from the sofa, “Yeah I need a shower and some sleep.”  Later that night at the cub Carman was laughing as Alicia had one arm around her and Carman seemed to lean in to her. As Carman took sip of her drink Shane appeared in front of them. Carman looked up shock had stunned her for that moment. “Carman can we talk?” Alicia stopped talking and with a drum down yet sad look then she softly leans over and whispers in Carmen’s ear she gently kisses her cheek. “I’ll be over there, Mama” Carman nods then she stares directly at Shane. Shane watches her get up and walks away. “What do you want Shane?” Shane sits down beside her, “I wanted to apologize. I know I ran off without telling you and sharing what had happened. I got caught up and scared and for that I know I’ve lost something that was important to me.”  Carman just nods Alicia seemed to stare at her and Shane, Shane looks to her, “Carman just talk to me tell me I’m wrong?”

 Carman looks at her “Shane this isn’t about you anymore and I am not going to tell you that you’re wrong anymore. You left me remember; it’s time for you to grow up. I have and I can’t take care of you anymore.” Shane strums her fingers on the table then Carman glances at her, “What’s done is done… We both can’t change it.” Shane glances over to Alicia. “So you like her?” Carman stares at Alicia, “Right now yes I like her. Alicia is great someone who actually understands me and my world right now. But, no she isn’t you and that is always something different.” Shane sits back and looks up beside herself she realizes that she has lost something dear to her. Shane starts to get up then with painful words, “Then I guess it’s over.” Carman watches as she walks away knowing in her heart she wants to run to her. Alicia walks over to Carman and sits beside her, “Are you alright.” Carman tried to nod yes but Alicia knew that look she had seen it many times she wasn’t alright. All she could do was put her arms around her and try to be there for whatever Carman needed at that moment.