Her hands sliding along my sides pulling me into her warm embrace. Her hand on the back of my neck, the rough feel of her jacket on my cheek. If she dies I die…I can’t let her go, I don’t want to. I know that it’s the only way that she’ll be safe; I can’t even fathom my life without her.

I hold her tight, and I hate them. I hate them I hate them, I hate them. She kisses this spot right behind my ear, her hand running through my hair. I pull away enough to look into her eyes in time to see them lighten once more.

Her kiss soft, gentle and slow…like she knows that this has to be our last. I want to remember this for the rest of my life, every moment. I want to remember the taste of her mouth, the colour of her eyes. How she holds my face gently in her hands, the way she curls her fingers right before she pulls me in. I want to remember this heat that comes from her, and most of all I want her to remember me.

“Please…I can’t watch you die…if you really love me you would go.” each word like a hot blade slowly taking a piece of my heart my soul with each breath I take.

“I’ll come back for you…when it’s safe. I promise.” she wipes away a tear and I hate this life, this world. “I love you, you are my heart. My air, my everything…nothing can keep me away from you.”

I hate her for saying that…for loving me back why can’t she just go. Just leave; please don’t say anything more to make this any harder than it already is.

“Go…just leave. If you want to promise me something Shane?” I don’t want to yell, I don’t to hurt her but it’s the only way I can save her. I want to hold her even more now as I push her away, “promise me that you’ll just go.”

She stares lost, each word harder to say then the last. She looks so hurt, so sad and my heart tears into a million pieces. Her eyes steeled and I can’t tell what she’s thinking…I want her more than I have ever wanted her. I want to pull her into my arms and tell her everything will be alright that nothing can touch us as long as we’re together. This need to touch her to tell her that I don’t mean it that what I really want is to be with her for the rest of my life.