She ran out of my apartment leaving me confused. Why did I do those things to her? I, Alice Pieszecki, had sworn silently to none else than me that I would not fall in love again. But I did. I did since a long time love Lara and I was too blind to see. When did this all start? I did not know or do not see it yet, but I know have to run after her. I ran as fast as I could, but I thought it was too late, I could not see her any more, When I suddenly felt someone pushing me against the wall and kissing me hard. Not knowing who it was I kissed back. All I knew was that she smelled like strawberries. It was a girl, she suddenly wanted to run away but I kept her from running away. It was Lara. Instead of running she was pushing me again against the wall and kissing me. We kissed our way back into my apartment and landed another time on my couch.

I must have fallen asleep because it was already dark when I woke up. To my surprise I was in the bedroom, with Lara in my arms. She was asleep, she looked really beautiful like this. Smiling I kissed her on her lips. Lara blinked and slowly opened her eyes. Before I could say anything Lara jumped off my bed and got dressed while practicly running out. I ran after her with the blanket around me and held her her arm before she reached the door. “Lara, wait. Why are you running away?” Lara mumbled something I could not understand and shrugged me off her and left me alone.

“Because you scare me.” I said before leaving Alice in her apartment after running away from her. Not knowing where else to do I walked to the Planet. Kit was there alone, not even Angus was in sight. “Morning.” I mumbled, Kit looking worried at me. “Lara?” Everything okay? Is something wrong?” she asked me. I just looked at her for a second and sat down on a chair at one of the empty tables. Still Kit was looking at me with her worried look. The least thing I expected to do was crying in front of my former boos now friend. Kit put an arm around my shoulder and started to talk. “Lara, listen I know this is hard for you, probably harder than for anyone else. But it will be over. You´ll get over Dana.” I looked up at her. “It´s not about Dana it´s about Alice and….and…and…me. I don´t know why or how this started but there is something going on between us. I am a bad person, I should be grieving about Dana, I do I really do, but I have fallen in love with Alice at the same time. How is this possible? Am I a bad human being? Am I betraying Dana? Am I betraying myself?” Kit looked at me stunned. “Yo kid I have never heard such bullshit. And I am saying this as your friend. You are definitly not betraying Dana, and not betraying yourself for that matter. We, as human beings, tend to fall in love at the wrong time or in the wrong place. That´s what makes us human. This is what love is. Unpredictable. If you have fallen in love Dana would be happy, even if it would be Alice. The least thing Dana wanted you to be is unhappy. If Alice makes you feel happy, then go and be with her and don´t care what everyone else says. The worst thing you can do is not to follow your heart and feelings and hurt yourself. If you don´t tell her how you feel you will lose the best thing that ever happened to you, Alice.” I looked at her like a deer in light. I didn´t know what to say, I was just stunned by that speech. “Kit, I am really thankful for your advice. But I don´t know if Alice feels the same way I do. I am just afraid. I don´t want to lose her too.” Kit just smiled at me. “Did she ever send you away?” “No.” “Did she ever try to keep you from leaving ? “Yes.” “There is your answer. If she wouldn´t feel the same way you do she would have already gone away. Go and tell her.” “Kit, I am afraid. I am afraid she rejects me.” “Who would reject you? I bet Alice feels the same way.”