Okay, so where were we? Oh, right. She’s still looking and
smiling at me. Palms are sweaty. Knees are wobbly. Get your self together, I
thought to my self.

“Shane” she said.

“Hhm” that’s all that can come out of my mouth right now. I
had to look back to the TV or I’m probably going to end up kissing her. And
that’s probably the corniest line a guy has ever said. ‘Nobody puts baby in a
corner’.

“You’re so sweet can I tell you a
secret?” she asked me, our eyes are on the TV. She probably sensed the tension
on our gaze, moments ago.

                                                        
In Alice‘s head

She is such a sweet talker, just
what I need right now. I can’t believe 7 years ago when I first met her, I had
the biggest crush on her. Who wouldn’t? She looks so adorable, her hair is
still damp and matted on her forehead, all wavy and little curls, piercing
green eyes and I could kiss those lips anytime.

But those feeling are long gone
now, if she was like this 7 years ago. I’d probably be just one of her one
night stands. She’s changed so much; I remember when all she can do is getting
girls, drinking and drugs. We’ve been friends for nearly 8 years but all I know
about her past is that she got send around in foster home. I wonder sometimes.
I wonder what made her do all those foolish things that she used to do…

“Yeah Al you can tell me anything you want” Any time. Any
day.   “I used to have a biggest crush on
you, you know… You were like this person that I wanted so bad but I know at
the same time that I could never have you.” 
A pang of a nasty feeling that I can’t described hit me.

“Really When?” I tried to smile. Try to sound amused I
guess.

“I’m not freaking you out am I?” She asked me. “No just
this is quite interesting”

“Do you still have those feeling for me?” I couldn’t help
but ask. “No way nah just like probably the whole first year that I met you”
suddenly I feel like my heart just shattered, and at the same time a budding
feeling of hope grew inside of me. And she had a crush on me for whole a
freaking year?!  “Wow that’s a long time
Al how come you didn’t try to hit on me or something” “Hhm that’s a good
question, I guess I just knew that we were going to be friends” Friends. I
wanted to tell her right there. Right then, that I want us to be more than
that. Why can’t I just ***** say it to her? Why is it so hard? Then all I could
hear was the TV sounds. She is waiting for a reply. “Good enough this Johnny
guy really knows how to dance” Trying to change the subject.