Carmen and Shane dated for about a year before breaking up. They found they were better as friends then trying to stay a couple. Carmen never could get over her jealously over Shane’s flirty ways, and though Carmen was completely out of the closet now Shane had a hard time living the lie of being straight anytime they were around Carmen’s family.

Shane met Dori right after the break up with Carmen, and fell head over heels in love. Shane had finally met the woman who tamed her. So when Dori left her, Shane was so heart broken, she really wondered if life was worth living.

When Alice came over to help her get over her heartache, she never thought it would end the way it had. She loved Alice as a friend, hell she loved Dana also. So she didn’t understand why she did it. She knew the only outcome of what they had done would be for her to lose either one or two of her best friends.

She thought back to that night, all the tears she shed and how Alice held her, telling her everything would be alright. Then she remembered thinking how good Alice smelled and wondered how she had missed that in all the years that she knew her.

Then she was kissing Alice, she remember how Alice at first fought against the kiss, but then Shane had felt and tasted her lips. She had to have more, at the time she didn’t care she wanted to feel something good to take away all the bad feelings, and at that moment Alice felt good.

Shane remember the force she used in kissing Alice, how she didn’t let her pull away. Then she felt Alice give into the kiss and at that moment Shane knew she had her. After that it was a blur of kisses and lovemaking.

After it was over Shane woke up to find Alice curled in a ball crying, it then hit Shane what they had done and the destruction caused by this moment of passion.

As she reached over to try to give Alice comfort, Alice pulled away stating that how this was to never happen again, and how she loved Dana.

They were on an emotional train wreck, they both knew it, but for some reason they couldn’t stop how they were feeling. They just watched knowing one day the guilt would cause it to crash and many lives would be ruined.

Alice stood in front of Shane’s door wanting to knock, she was going to end the secrets and lies. She wanted to warn Shane she couldn’t live like this anymore she was planning to tell Dana. God help her she was going to tell Dana, then beg her not to throw her out. She hoped Dana would give her another chance, and if she did Alice would spend a life time making up to Dana for what she had done.

Alice finally knocked on the door. When Shane opened the door she reached her hand out to guide Alice inside, Alice was quick to pull back from Shane’s touch. “Shane you can’t touch me. I can’t handle you touching me. I’m going to tell Dana about us, I’m going to tell her and beg her to forgive me. I just wanted to warn you all hell is about to break loose.”

Shane opened her door waving for Alice to come in and talk about it. “Al, you can’t do that. It will kill Dana. We don’t have to tell anyone. Alice I don’t want to lose Dana as a friend, what we did was wrong, we both know it. Why do you need to tell her it won’t happen again.”

Alice knew she was being selfish, she wasn’t the only one with a lot to lose, but she couldn’t keep living like this. It was killing her and killing her relationship with Dana. “Shane I can’t live like this. I have to set things straight, and live with the consequences I feel like I’m constantly lying to her. I’m sorry I have to do this.”

Shane stood at the door watching her friend leave, wondering if she was about to lose the two best friends she had ever had. She wiped the tears from her eyes thinking this hurt more then her breakup with Dori.

TBC