Maria please hear me out Alana went over hand grabbed her Marias arms in a loving manner.I never stopped loving you.I had problemsproblems I didnt know how to fixI didnt have the skills to fixI knew how loving Grandma Nina was I just thought instead of exposing you to my screwed up lifeI wanted you to be happy.

Happy..A six year oldHappy when her mothernever came back from her trip.
A seven year old who doesnt understand why her mother isnt there for her birthday?
Maria cried.

I know I know there is nothing I can do to change that but apologize and ask you for forgiveness.? Alana.. Honey if you would have been with me.you wouldnt have
had what you did with Grandma NinaI would try to see you but she would turn me awaybecause I was drinking!

You couldnt put the alcohol down long enough to play mom! Maria stated

No I didnt have the will power.However Grandma Nina took me under her wing.
She arranged for me to go to rehabThe first timeI didnt do well and I ran from it. Alana stated I finally woke up five years ago.and showed up on her porch.
You were off at college playing basketball She made took me again to a rehab place and saidIf you dont do it this time.I will destroy your letters to Elizabeth.and you will never see either of your daughters as long as you are alive. Alana said as she looked into Marias eyes.

Grandma Nina did that for you? Maria questioned her.

She did more than that..I didnt have insuranceSo she got your dad to put me on his insurance policy.so I could get the coverage for help. Alana stated
I also had to promise I would do counseling to learn how to deal with the pain I have caused my family..It was very intense.some nights I would just cry myself to sleep.
Alana commented as she moved closer to her youngest daughter.

While doing the counseling I started to take classes to finish my undergrad degree in Social Work. Then I finished my masters program for Counseling I was so excited
I had tried to call you grandmotherbut I could never get in touch with her
I even drove there.thinking I would see her face to face but she.They said she had moved. Alana shared as she placed her hand on her daughters shoulders. I had no idea that your grandmother passed away until you I talked to her father the other day.

Yes we moved to a ranch on the other side of townWe had a lot of trouble with our mailing going to the new addressPlus the telephone number was changed to unlisted because of my teaching position. Maria said

Please Maria will you find it in your heart to give this mother of yours a second chanceMy life will not be complete until I know I have you backI love you so much
Meme Alana pleaded with her daughter.

Maria had not been called that since she was really little.The sound of her mother saying that brought a tear to her eye.

Im glad you got your life straightened out..I just dont know.I just need to sleep on this.What guarantee do I have that you wont ***** me again? Maria voiced

Maria please believe me I would never hurt you again.I am sorry you had to pay for my mistakes. .Im really sorry.Please I love you.! Alana stated.

Maria just wanted to take off and runMake her mother hurtShe didnt want to give in. Then she heard the baby start to cry again..It was like Anna Bella was telling her to stay.

Look Alana.I would really love to have you in my life.I dont know to what degree.. So Im not making any promises.Maria shared

Thank you for just thatI will earn your trust honey.yours and your sisters.
You two will never be able to get away from me. Alana said as she grabbed her daughter in a tight embracethey both started crying. Then Bette came out and she joined her mother and younger sister in a tight embrace.

TBC.