“I’m here to see Tina” Bette said walking inside she went into Tina’s room seeing her sitting by the window looking out. She knocked.

“I’m not hungry Dane” Tina said not looking.

“That’s weird you barely ate” Bette spoke softly.

“Bette!” Tina said surprised. “What are you doing here, I mean I’m glad you’re here!”

Bette smiled, “Come here” She opened her arms.

Tina was there in a matter of seconds hugging her tight. “I’m so sorry”

“Shhh” Bette calmed her down, “It’s ok”

“I was so out of line” Tina continued “The things I accused you of… I have no right”

“Tee… it’s ok” Bette kissed her forehead. “The reason I was so upset was because it’s true” She said in a small voice.

“What?” Tina quickly let her go. “What do you mean? Is this what I am to you? Another notch on your belt?”

“No! No you got it all wrong” Bette shook her head “It came out wrong…” Bette sighed. “You see a while back… right after Amanda I was so mad… I was furious she used me like a tool and I wanted to get back, at anyone you know?”

‘More than you think’ Tina thought but said nothing.

“Katie was Amanda’s friend, nice sweet… it was just bad timing… I was in a very bad place. She was a virgin… and she wouldn’t have a one night stand so I…” Bette took a deep breath “I started dating her” She grimaced “Until we finally slept together…the next time she called I just blew her off” Bette looked at Tina, Tina could see the pain in Bette’s eyes. “I fucked her up Tina. So bad… she slept with some girl she met to make me jealous but I didn’t care…” Bette rubbed her temples fighting tears “I didn’t fucking care. And if that’s not enough her next serious girlfriend cheated on her. After that she was… changed. She started sleeping around with everyone or anyone… then after a year word got around. People were talking about her calling her an ‘easy lay’ then one day she…” Bette stopped taking a shaky breath “She… they found her and called an ambulance” Tears were running down Bette’s cheeks. “They took her to the hospital she lost so much blood…”

“Bette” Tina whispered coming to her holding her tight.

“They saved her but she just tried again Tee… ” Bette was crying now. “She was in a mental instituted last I heard.”

Tina kissed Bette’s tears. “It’s my fault. I fucked her life… I ruined her”

“Bette you couldn’t have known…” Tina tried to calm her.

“I was a bitch and now because of me she’s hospitalized she could have been working somewhere… maybe having a family but I robbed her of that”

“Bette you can’t blame yourself… it wasn’t your fault…” Tina looked at her.

“It is” Bette whispered “And I live with it everyday”

“It was an unfortunate chain of events.”

“That I started”

Tina sighed, “It’s not your fault. You’re a good person. You’re a great person I know you”

“Do you?”

“I do” Tina insist “I see it in your eyes you’re one of the good guys”

“I’m just like Sara”

“You’re not” Tina quickly responded, “Don’t talk like that you’re nothing like her.”

“I am”

“Well I was with both of you and I’m telling you you’re nothing like her” Tina concluded.

Bette sighed burying her head in Tina’s neck. “Now you understand why I would never lie to get someone into bed” Bette mumbled.

“I’m sorry. I was so wrong” Tina caressed her hair. “You’re a good person” Tina said.

“Sure”

Tina raised Bette’s head looking at her. “Say it.”

“You’re a good person” Bette said looking at Tina.

“Bette… say it”

Bette sighed. “I’m a good person” She said sounding like a five years old been forced to say he’s sorry.

“You are. Better than me”

“Now you’re just lying” Bette smiled capturing Tina’s mouth.

“I’m really not”

“You want to go over to my place?” Bette asked as she ran her fingers through Tina’s hair.

“Sure” Tina kissed her shoulder.

“I need to get Net some food, I promised her”

“Ok, you know what I have to talk to Dana so I’ll meet you at your place?”

“Sure” Bette kissed her pulling back Tina pulled her back in kissing her again.

“Bye” Tina smiled seeing the glazed look on Bette’s face.