Knowing that there was a lot going on in her wife’s thoughts, Lyndsay just held onto her softly whispering that it would be OK.  That she was there for whatever Angie needed.

After a number of minutes passed by, Angie turned to face her wife.  “I’m sorry.”

Smiling, Lyndsay replied “I know sweetie, but can you please tell me what caused you to come running up here like this?  I know you come here when you want to think, or when something is bothering you.  I just wish you would talk to me instead of always hiding away.”

“I know Lynds, I just didn’t know how to this time.”  Angie turned to face her wife.  Taking her hands in her own she looked into her eyes and continued.  “I am so lucky to have you in my life.  I don’t know what I did to deserve you, but I want you to know how very thankful I am.  You have always given me so much unconditional love, even when I am sure I haven’t always deserved it.  It’s like you know me better than I know myself sometimes.”

“Ang, you’re scaring me.  Is there something you are not telling me?  Are you sick, or are you….

“No baby, I’m not sick, I’m sorry I’m not explaining this very well.”

“I’m trying to understand Ang, but it’s not making any sense.”

Angie softly smiled.  “I know.  Let me try again to explain.”  Angie took a minute to gather her thoughts, then began her explanation of why she felt the need to be at the lake so unexpectedly.  “These past few weeks have been really hard for me.  It’s coming up to 6 months since I lost my Mom, and I think that it finally hit me full force and I realized that she is truly gone and isn’t just on a trip somewhere.  I’ve been thinking about her a lot lately, wishing that I had more time with her, that I had more time with both of my Mom’s.  You never got to meet Mama T, but she was an amazing person.  She always said I was just like my Mom.  Mama T always said that Mama B would always hide away her emotions, and try to make like everything was great on the outside, but sometimes on the inside, there was just so much going on.”