Bette came back from her thoughts and loosened her grip around Helena’s waist. Helena pulled back from the embrace and looked at Bette. She was surprised about her own affectionate gesture and need to be near Bette. Sometimes during the night when she was awoken by a nightmare and was scared, she wanted to go to Bette and sleep next to her. She felt safe near Bette amongst other things. She too had been thinking back to when Bette had visited her in prison. Those feelings had given her the strength to go on then and now it was no different. Thanks to Bette she felt the need to go on, to get better. She knew that Bette liked her, she could see it in how she took care of her in the most adorable way, but how much did she like Helena?

She looked into Bette’s eyes again and could see warmth and deep emotions emerging from her eyes. Those emotions and warmth were directed to her and it made her feel good. It made her feel loved for the first time in a long time. For a moment it looked like Bette wanted to kiss her, but thought better of it and stepped back slightly. She was confused as to why the thought of it made her feel somewhat good and warm inside. Shouldn’t she be disgusted at a thought like that? Well she was, just not when she thought about Bette. Helena was even more confused and she could feel a headache coming up. At the same time she felt embarassed for showing her emotions like that in front of Bette by hugging her. She needed to be alone. Helena looked away and told Bette she was going to bed and went abruptly to her room. Bette lingered on the same spot without moving. She missed the warmth of Helena’s body already and tried to burn this incredible feeling into her brain.

A few hours later Bette was laying on the couch drinking some tea as she watched tv. The night had already fallen and she wanted to relax before going to bed. She had switched on the tv and zapped through the channels. When there was nothing really interesting she stopped at some boring movie, which had just began not long ago and watched it. Suddenly she heard some footsteps coming from behind, but before she could turn fully around she saw Helena standing there. She didn’t move and just stood there if she was waiting for something. Bette sat slowly up and looked her over. She must have had another nightmare and couldn’t fall asleep anymore.