”Just leave, you’re good for nothing!”

”But dad, i really tried!’

”I don’t want to see your here anymore till you finally get good grades.”

”Just..just hear me out daddy! It was the teachers fault! He won’t listen to me!”

”Ofcourse. It’s always someone elses fault. You being kicked out of dance-class,
you getting in a fight with your mum, you scoring nothing but F’s on your tests”

”But..”

”Ofcourse! ofcourse i understand. Always, everything is somebody elses fault,
you’re never wrong Tina!”

”Dad, stop being so childish you don’t know what i mean”

”Just shut the fuck up and out of my face before i get really angry!”

Tina’s dad had threathening eyes, huge hands, and never understood her.
She decided to go away.. Nothing she said would make any difference, and she knew that,
when she tried to stay and convince him, he would seriously do something to her,
like all those times before.
He had no boundaries.. and if he would have any, he would drink them away.
Everything in her life was a mess.

She tucked her hair behind her ear, while tears started falling down her face.
Although she wanted to convince her dad that she was doing everything right,
she kind of understood him. Her last grades were very poor, especially the ones from Biology.
When she was a kid, she really wanted to be a doctor,
so choosing biology as one of her subjects seemed as a very good start for her to begin her carreer.
When she chose the subject, she never thought she would get such an awful teacher.
Her dad was right, not everything was always somebody elses fault, but in this case, he really couldn’t blame her.

Mister Smit was a terrible guy who hated everything that was just a little bit different from what he was used to.
He easily gave students he liked higher grades than students he didn’t like,
even if the nice students gave wrong awnsers at the questions.
If you were black you didn’t even have to try to go into his class,
because he would kick you out before you could even show your biology-skills to him.
Smit hated Tina for a reason she could really do nothing about.
Tina could still remember very well when this all started:
she was doing some research for an assignement with her boyfriend Alex in the classroom.
Alex was playing with his lighter when suddenly he let it fell off the table
and their whole paper got on fire. Soon some clothes, other pieces of paper,
and also some plants were on fire too. There was
nothing they could do to stop it from burning anymore.
Alex ran away, and Tina just sat there screaming for help.
Mister Smit was in shock and called the fire-brigade.
Luckily everything was solved within half an hour.
When the firemen were gone, and Smit asked what happened, Tina lied and said it was all her fault.

The blonde looked at herself in the mirror.
If she had told the truth back then, she wouldn’t have to deal with so much trouble right now.
Everything she did was wrong in his eyes, and her boyfriend wasn’t even thankfull for her lie.
She was still with Alex, but it didn’t seem right anymore.
They hadn’t slept together yet, and that was something he thought was unbearable.
Everytime she was alone with him, he would try to take off her clothes, or push her onto a couch or bed, which made her avoid it even more.
In the beginning she really thought they would work out.
She didn’t even think about having sex for the first time with anybody else but him.
Their relationship wasn’t healthy anymore, and that was something she was feeling for 2 months now.
She needed somebody to protect her from all the misery in her life.

She got pulled out of her thoughts by the noise of some breaking plates.
She heard her dad yel to her mother in the kitchen downstairs.
Their relationship wasn’t healthy either. There was no money, and no love left in her home.

It had to stop.
All those problems had to stop.
Stop and go away.
Easier said than done, the blonde thought.

And with that last thought she did what she mostly did at night: cry herself to sleep…