"I’m having some toast. I don’t think my stomach can handle anything else"

"Hmm ok, I suppose I can let you off"

"Thanks Mom"

"I’ve been making sure you eat properly for the past ten years, so I don’t plan on changing any time soon"

"I know…I kind of like it…but don’t tell anyone" the brunette admitted.

Tina had to laugh. If only the people at work could see how soft her best friend really was.

"T…I…I’m sorry if I stepped over the line last night" Bette said quietly.

"Don’t ever be sorry for telling me how you feel"

"Ok"

"I know you’ve been worrying today…"

"I swear you have spies in my office"

"No, I just know you too well" the blonde pointed out.

"True" the brunette had to agree.

"Trust me, I haven’t been able to think about anything else today. I just…god I don’t know what I’m thinking about it all. It’s too much…"

"You must be thinking something"

"All I’m thinking is that I have a wedding booked in two weeks"

"That’s not an answer T"

"I know…and maybe I’m a coward, and maybe I’ll lose your respect over this but…"

"You’ll never lose my respect, I promise you" Bette said softly.

The blonde gave a small smile, almost as though her friend could see her "You’ll never know how much that means to me. But the truth is…I’m too scared to change anything"

"Scared of who?"

"I don’t know. Myself? Maybe you might be strong enough to just bite the bullet and make a life changing decision like that, but I’m just not"

The brunette looked at the floor "I’m not as brave as you think I am"

"Sure"

"I just don’t see…T, do you really think that being too scared to change it is a good reason to get married?"

"It’s not just that. There’s so many things to be scared of. People’s reactions, losing my life as I know it, wasting my chance. What if this is what I’m meant to do? What if Henry’s the one? Everybody gets doubts, right? And if I called off this wedding, that would be it for us"

"These are more than your average doubts"

"But are they? I just don’t know what to think B. And I can’t take that risk. I just…I hope you can understand why I have to do this" the blonde said with a sigh.

Bette paused, a lump forming in her throat as she managed to speak in a whisper "I can understand"

"And you won’t think any less of me?"

"Never"

"I don’t know what I’d do without you" the blonde said honestly.

"Not have so many doubts put in your head?"

"You only did it ’cause you’re looking out for me"

"I know, but still, I feel guilty…"

"Don’t" Tina interrupted "you did the right thing"

"So we’re good?"

"Course we are. So long as you can still handle a roommate for the next two weeks?"

"I’m looking forward to it"

"And so long as you promise to take care of me tomorrow night and not let Alice run riot"

Bette laughed "I always do T"

The brunette could hear Henry in the background and muffled sounds as Tina covered the receiver to speak to him briefly.

"I’m sorry B I’m gonna have to go" she said when she came back on the line.

"Everything ok?"

"Yeah the take aways just arrived"

"Oh ok" God forbid Henry ever cooked for you. Even I’ve cooked for you, and I can barely make a sandwich without something going wrong "Well I’ll see you tomorrow yeah?"

"Yeah, come by whenever so you can settle yourself in before the girls get here"

"Ok will do. Night night"

"Night T"

As she hung up the phone, Bette let her head fall into her hands. It was really happening. Two weeks tomorrow she would be standing beside the love of her life as she married someone else.