Love,centered (chapter 1)

Set between season 5 and 6.

Bette lives for these days , her family having fun . The sound of her daughters laughter filling up the house,accompanied by mama tee like bubbles float through the air breathes life into a house that knows only silence or rage. music to her ears, the sound a most perfect symphony …her family happy…a treasured sound she ingraines into her consciousness  ensuring the memory is preserved for eternity. It is a sound she would gladly listen to every second of every day until her last breath. It evokes in her the same feeling everytime…contentment. Her Daugter and wife…no ex wife a perfect balance , no need to meditate to center herself …for they are her center , the force that allows her to be the best person she can be …because that’s what they deserve …the best. As she sits and watches them she feels so many different emotions…sadness , anger , the strongest is love…no matter what she and tina goes through . Deep down they never completely let go of that love , they hold on to just enough love that helps them find their way back to each other everytime no matter how far they drift apart. Lost in her blissful thoughts bette fails to hear angelica call out  ”mama B out” ”Bette” tina says a little louder getting her full attention. ”Yes tee” ” angel” wants to get out” ” oh mama sorry angel face come here” bette wraps her little girl in a fluffy towel ”mama potty and nappy ”” ok boo – you want a snack before nappy” no thank u juice mama ” ”juice it is” ” hey tee I’ll be right back ”. While bette goes inside , tina decides she might as well try to get a little tan she unhooks her bikini top to avoid lines on her back and floats around the pool . Not unlike bette these moments spent with her family means everything to her however her pleasure comes with pain. Yes she is content but she is also conflicted. spending time with bette is sweet torture, everything about bette torments her long after she has said her goodbyes. Its becoming almost impossible to fight her attraction to the brunette …”I’m such a fuckin idiot” tina says to her herself…she was mine and then I threw her away …now she belongs to someone else…she deserves an oscar award for best performance …because for all the indifference she radiates in bettes presence…as soon as she gets home her resolve crumbles and she let’s herself think of bette …rather fantasize unashamedly …remembering every little detail from what she wore to how many times she smirked that sexy half smile . Touching herself ,she never has too wait too long for release as she’s been aroused the entire time in bettes presence.  

Eyes closed fingers gliding through the water …she looks the picture of total relaxation. At first as bette comes out she is taken aback so much so she involuntary stumbles backwards…going unnoticed . Trying to compose herself she cannot believe the force that went through every cell , quite literally almost knocked off her feet just by seeing tina float with her top undone…”F*ck porter get a grip!  u have seen her naked so many times” her self replies ”perhaps that’s the problem-i don’t have to imagine …f*ck she’s so hot! So beautiful and with the sun shining down on her its like she’s glowing” ”ok let’s do this”  bette takes a deep breath shakes her head to clear it straightens her back with false bravado and steps out clearing her throat ”ahem” tina turns her head and smiles  ”was she any trouble” bette grabs a magazine and just shakes her head fearing her voice might betray her. Tina takes this as bette not wanting to chat and turns her head disappointed going back to her own thoughts. What she is unable to see is the desire evident in bettes eyes as its hidden by her dark shades . Both women silent lost in their own thoughts …thoughts they unknowingly share…the same desires…questions …feelings….

Both painfully aware of what’s at stake …afraid to take the risk TBC?