Meanwhile Angelica waited at home, at the table….cursing herself, her existence..the fact that her parents had tried so hard to make her….too bad Marcus Allenwood delivered. She was going to reform, she was going to be the perfect daughter, she was going to wow Bette…she was going to be good she was going to be good she was going to be good good good good *****’n A good. angelica cursed herself some more…she really was stupid. she wished she hadn’t had the motto of trying everything at once….or twice. Angleica for the first time felt real guilt. She felt guilt, guilty. When Bette ran over that kid Angelica first impulse was to run away, but gorey side overcame her and she went closer to see what happened…then she saw her mom. Bette…..it was mom who ran that kid over…he must have flew 15 feet. Shad was behind her holding her hand, reassuring her..he was sweet….now Angelica wanted to kill him. But at the moment she wanted to melt again in his arms. she wanted to melt into an oblivion. when Angelica called out to Bette, Bette had turned around with the fiercest look angelica ever saw. Bette had just seen her with Shad and had just hit someone…things were not exactly calm or reasonable in her brain, at least for 15 seconds. Long enough for her to drive Angelica into shad’s arms. Bette stood up and walked to Angelica yelling her head off…going for Angelica’s jugular when Shad blocked her, Angelica backed away…Bette yelling that Angelica was a ***** ***** and a traitor. Angelica breathed hard and then ran as fast as she can, shad with her…Shad with her all the way…all the way to his house.  Angelica went into his house, his room, his bed….she lay there crying…crying…crying. It felt like Bette had cut her throat, cut her heart. It was awful…and when Shad had sat beside her and hugged her it felt good…when he kissed her it felt soothing…when he kissed her shoulder it felt good…when he took off her shirt it felt good…when he took off his pants and pressed his firm thighs against hers it felt good….when he kissed her more it felt good….when he enterd her it hurt it was wrong she should leave she should never had talk to him she should not have let him touch her a second time….she lay still. Now at the table, after leaving shad telling him it was over for good now no more flings, he had shrugged having gotten what he wanted, and left his house. she ran home, her croth felt sore..it was her second time ever…but she was STUPID SHE WAS SSSSSTTTTUUUUPPPIIIIDDD!!!!!! Angelica made herself tea and sat back down at the table….life sucked right now…what should she do? Angelica decided to wait, she should wait for Bette, she should promise to be good…..what she should have done was to use a condom……………..that is what Angelica Porter should have done. But she wasn’t even thinking about that, a stupid thing to forget about. She should have used one, that’s what Angelica Porter should have done.

 Then the phone ringed and Angelica picked it up…..it was Dina, how did she get the number? But Angelica was so vulnerable she didn’t say anything, instead after the formalities she confessed her entire situation….she needed someone…needed an adult to comfort her. Dina offered to let her stay at the new apartment she was renting with a couple of roommates, just until Bette gets home….Angelica would call home hourly.

 The world had gone to *****.

 Kirsten would come to the house to get Angelica onlyl to find the house empty. Angelica would fall asleep on dina’s shoulder unsure of the woman, trying to forget her liason…..a no-no, a big mistake. While Bette put her hands to her face…whispering…”Tina I really need you”.