Alice filled Dana in about Kyle’s info as they drove to Alices. Shane was very quiet. She looked nervous. When she realized it was rubbing off Alice and Dana she said: I have a bad feeling about this.

It was way after midnight and Tina and Bette had managed to change and get into bed. They both lay there looking into each others eyes, staring into each-others soul, searching their thoughts. After a while Tina stroked Bettes face, giving a little to her wound and her lips.BetteI love you. And a tear rolled down Bettes eye. Tina caught it before it hit the pillow. Talk to me baby, what is going on? Tina was scared because Bette had changed and she didnt know how to deal with her. She could clearly see Bettes broken facepale eyes and it was killing her. Bette use to be very vocalunclear and angrybut vocal. Now, Bette was very quietlike soaking in every bit of pain and swallowing it down.she was calm but she was hurting bad.

Bette tried to speak but couldnt. Her throat was choked. Tina stroked her face and her hairIts okay, take your time… After a few moments Bette looked into Tinas eyes: T, I am not going to hold back. I have learnt the hard way..I need to come to you with my fears.hoping youll catch me. Tina took Bettes hand and crossed her heart. Bette smiled..T, Kyles words are killing me. But, shes right. Thats who I am. Atleast who I was. Self engrossed, hopeless.cheater. You gave me love, so much love, your heart and all I thought was me, me me. What I wanted? What I needed? And I couldnt even get that right.? I dont even know if I deserve you. I dont know how can I live without youI actually know I cant.butI think you should think if youll take be back. I know right now you are finding our home safe but that doesnt make my actions worth forgiveness.

T, I have spend days and nights in this house just looking at the stuff..everything had your memory on it. Like when we painted our guestroom, our deck.the drapes you picked upand I fought with you over themyou returned and then I got them back.the fun we had picking up coucheswe made people uncomfortable trying those postures in publicthe jewelry you leftevery one had a storythe pool, the plantsall of it made me realizeyou are everything for me. And now I do know that. But, T.I have learnt something else. If you are the most important person for me.what you want becomes very important.

T, I have always wanted you to be happy. I cannot stand the thought of youin pain and I did just that. I dont want you to get fogged about how you feel about us by what happened yesterday. No ones ever hurting you again like that. I’ve got you. But, keep this day aside when you think of us. I cant hurt you again. I have to be fair. I have to know you are happy.

Tina thought she was going to pass out. She was falling in love all over again with the same woman. Right here. She didnt care what people would say. Bette loved her from the first day she met. They livedmarriedgrew older.for seven long, loving years. Bette held her on bad days, cold nights.after making love, before going to work. Bette loved her when she was pregnant and when she lost the babywith same intensity. Tina knew it took two people for a relation to go sour. Bette was short-tempered and couldnt accept her fears and she had flaws.who doesnt? Bette made a big mistake.but she never lied..she accepted it and she worked on herselfall the while waiting patiently for Tina. Loving her from distance. This woman lying next to her was worth more than shed ever know. But Tina had every intention to tell her.

Tina: Baby.I love you. Theres no one else I can see myself growing old with. Theres no other Bette. Never will be. I had my share of doings in leading you to that woman. And they were not fair. Just because you did something more visible doesnt justify my part.Bette, there has been no day when I ached to see you when I woke up and when I slept. I bought your perfumebecause I was scared to loosing the sense of your smell in air around me. I waited for you and watched you as you stalled me. I felt physically pain.as I longed to be held by you. I might need time to forgive you.for sharing yourself with someone besides me..but theres no one else I want and no place other than this I want to be in. In a way I thank Kyle for letting me find my way back to you. Porter.I have never stopped loving you but the new you..thats something to kill for. I am not going anywhere. This is my home. You are my home Bette.