The Past

The CAC

Bette had returned from her lunch and was leaning back in her seat looking up at the ceiling. She was feeling excited about tonight and was thinking how well things seemed to be going with Tina recently. In her delusion she was sure Tina would be back in her home and most importantly in her bed soon. At first she was just going through the motions of getting Tina to come back to her just because she thought that that was expected of her and she didn’t want think that the last 7 years had been a waste of time. But she had found herself falling more and more in love with Tina than she thought possible. The more they spoke and saw eachother she realised that she hadn’t fallen out of love in the first place.
She humoured herself in thinking that Candace was fulfilling her needs but in all honestly she was sick of the meaninglessness of it all. The attraction she felt for her had disappeared weeks ago as had her orgasms and since then it was just her ego that kept her going back for more. For the most part the ***** wasn’t that good anyway, with Candace’s rough carpenter hands and all, her insides were left a bit raw from it which was quite painful. But maybe that’s what she wanted at least it was a feeling. She loved that she was still desired like that but she was empty and unsatisfied.
She had been thinking about her actions these past months and what a cold, selfish ***** she has been to everyone even those she proclaimed to love. “What the ***** have I been doing” she whispered to herself. To her it was like she had taken a vacation from her body and someone else had inhabited it and fucked with her life. She was finally waking up to herself and decided that next time she saw Candace would also be her last.
After her moment of clarity there was a knock at the door.
Bette: “Who is it”
The door opened and Kit walked in. “Hey baby sistah.” walking over and kissing the top of Bette’s head feeling the bump on the back of her head with her hand.
Kit: “***** what’s with this bump on your head girl”
Bette: “Oh it’s nothing Kit I just banged it on a door, I’m fine”
Kit: “Ah-ha girl I understand if it was on the top or front of your head but how the ***** do you get it on the the back of it?”
Feeling guilty Bette shrugs :”It’s a long story Kit”
Kit:” Well I’m in no hurry, shot”
Wanting to confess she blurted it out..”look I’ve still been ***** her ok”
Kit: in shock “what the *****! who that Candace girl? I thought you wanted Tina. I’m sorry girl but I can’t handle this” she colapsed down on to the couch.
Bette: sincerly “I do want her Kit”
Kit:looking up she livid “so you want your cake and eat it too. ***** you Bette your just like Melvin”
Bette: frustrated “look I’m ending it with her the next time I see her that’s it I’m done with her”
Kit: concerned “does Tina know”
Bette: sarcasticly rolling her eyes “do you think she’d even talk to me let alone invite me to dinner if she did”
Kit: “no no you’re right” there’s a long silence …”I don’t no what to say Bette what’s up with you, I’m just so..so angry with you right now..how could you do this to her again”
Bette: sobbing “I..I just haven’t felt like myself Kit. I didn’t care about anything, I just felt like someone else was controlling my body and I had no say”…”I’ve just felt so numb and being with Candace it was exciting at first, then T left and I was still desired and that was just one big ego boost you know. So I thought I play her until I got T back and I wasn’t even really sure I did. Do you know how much I hate myself right now I’ve been such an insensitive ***** playing with everyone emotions”
Kit: “yeah you’ve been superbitch”
They both laugh. Kit gets up and goes over to Bette and places her arm around her shoulder.
Kid: “look girl I don’t know how this is all going to turn out but you really need to get your ***** together. My girl deserves better than this, well I hate to say this but better than you. You know I love you baby girl and I truely hope you get her back but if you hurt her I..I..just promise me that this is what you really want before you rip her heart out again”
Bette: with tears streaming down her face she looked up at her big sis “I know you love her as much as I do and I love you for that Kit and yes I really do want this and I would rather die than cause her any more pain than I have already put her thru.
There was nothing more said Kit just held her like a child in her arms rocking back and forth singing her a lulaby like when she was a little girl.

After Kit had left she had compossed herself she decided she couldn’t wait to end it with Candace, she didn’t want to see her as thoughts of uneasy break-up ***** came into her head and made her cringe, I need to heal. So she got on the phone and still being in her superbitch mode left a message on Candace’s machine:
“Hey Candace this is Bette.
Look this thing isn’t working for me.The time we’ve spent together has been fu…well different. The ***** was really go..look I know I should have said this before but you really should use moisturiser. I mean my *****’s killing me and the banging up against the wall what’s up with that, my heads killing me and there’s a massive bump on it. So what was I saying yes I’ve come to the realisation that I still want Tina if she’ll have me and there is no place in my life for you. I wish you the best. Bye.”
She put the reciever down. ***** was that abit harse she thought.

Alice’s place

Tina was preparing dinner thinking about the surprise she had for Bette tonight, when the dooor bell rang she opened the door. What the ***** do you want….