I look into the eyes of this blonde beauty standing in front of me and just as a tear escapes my eye I say, I cant do thisIm sorry. I slip away from her allowing my hands to linger in hers. As soon as our touch ends I turn to the table to see Alice heading towards me.

I have to go, I tell her. I cant stay here. I need to go see Bette. I have to tell her I still love her.

Just as Alice is about to tell me something, Shane walks up and whisks her away saying, can I talk to you Al?

Ill be right back, Alice says. Ill take you home. Homeyeahwhere is home anymore? Is it at Alicesor my own place Ill look for tomorrowor is it with Bettein the house we had together? Another woman approaches me, but I dont seem to hear anything shes saying. Alice leads me by the arm away from the woman and out the door.

As soon as we reach the car and get in, the dam breaks. I cant hold back the tears anymore. I couldnt do it, I tell Alice, no matter how much I triedI just couldnt do it.

Do what, Honey? She doesnt know what Im telling her.

I couldnt do anything with that woman. I just wanted someone to hold meto touch meto love me like Bette used to do. What did I do wrong that made her turn to someone else? I miss Bette so mucheven after what she did.I just want her to hold meI love her so much.

Tina, you cant do thatyou cant blame yourselfthis is all on Bettes shoulders. You didnt make her do it. Alice is trying to make me feel better, but its not working. Only one person can make me feel better right now. I have to see BetteI have to ask her why she was with Candace today.

I saw her with Candace, I tell Alice. Without saying anything, she starts the car. I have to explain what Im talking about. Earlierwhen I went to talk to hershe wasnt home so I went to the park. She was therewith Candace, her name escapes my mouth with a vile taste.