“Fuck!” Bette yelled. She knew she was making Tina perfect in her mind and she knew that if she went on like this, she’d be hugely disappointed in the real Tina. And Tina didn’t deserve that. She probably was very sweet. She seemed so loving, so caring.
Seriously, stop thinking about her, Porter.

Bette sighed when Cassie appeared in the living room.

“What’s wrong, babe?”

“I’m not your babe anymore. And I’m fine, just fine. You know, it is my hobby to break up relationships that mean a lot to me. I like that. I love it. I wished I could do it for a living.”

“Bette, come on. Every soul in LA just heard you shout like that. What’s wrong? And for the record: you are the one breaking up, so that makes me the one feeling bad.”

“Oh, so I can’t feel bad because I broke up? I don’t have feelings?”

“I didn’t say that! Don’t be ridicolous.”

“I’m just imagining to be you. So you could see what you’re like, how impossible it is to talk to you, let alone live with you.”

Bette knew she was being way too harsh for Cassie, but it was probably the only way to make this clear. She had to erase every hope from Cassies heart. It was over. She had said it was a pause, but she figured Cas was smart enough to understand what it all was about. She was way overreacting and she knew it, but it was the only way. She hated herself for doing this, but she had no choice. It hurt like hell to treat the woman she after all still loved so much.

She heard Cassie sobbing and felt like going to her and wrap her arms around her, but she had to be strong. If she wanted to pull this through, she just couldn’t give in.

“I don’t understand, Bette.” Bette could almost hear the tears in Cassie’s voice.
“I don’t know if I do, Cas,” she sighed.
“Everything was so perfect between us. We both have great jobs, we earn good money, we love each other. We are like meant to be, right? And now you come home really late and I just ask you how it comes, and you say you want a pause. You say you want to break up after five years. Doesn’t it mean anything to you? Didn’t it mean anything to you?”
“It meant the world to me, Cas, you need to know that.”