She also wants me to cut her hair when I’m back at work. Work. That’s what I’d like to do. I miss cutting and styling my custom’s hair. But anyway…I’m really glad that Naomi comes to see me every day. She’s really nice and I prefer talking to her rather then watching TV.

I still couldn’t talk to Paige. She came to see me twice, but she always came with Jared so I couldn’t tell her that I can’t have a relationship with her. She’s such a nice girl and she seems to be perfect for me, that makes it much harder for me to tell her the truth about my feelings. But I know that it would be unfair not to tell her the truth.

The funny thing about that is that I’m pretty sure that Carmen doesn’t want to see me anymore. As I already told you she didn’t come to see me again after the first night in hospital. I don’t understand what could have upset her so much. Maybe she was too shocked and that’s why she staid. Maybe she was jealous of Paige. No…I don’t think so. She wanted us to be friends and not more. But right now she’s not even acting like a friend. Maybe she’s just sick of me.

Day seven, this is my last day at this fucking hospital. I can’t wait to go home. It’s 7 pm now and Bette, Jodie and Angelica just left. There’s another knock on the door and I expect it to be Naomi.

Shane: “Hey, why are you knocking the door, you know you never disturb me.”

Carmen: “Well, thank you that’s nice of you to say that, but I guess you were expecting someone else.”

Damn it. I really didn’t expect her. I looked at her and grinned nervously.

Shane: “Sorry, I thought it was somebody else, but you’re welcome, as well.”

Carmen laughed: “Thanks, that’s nice.”

We look at each other for a moment. Nobody says anything. It’s like a game. The one who talks first looses. She looses.

Carmen: “So…how are you doing?”

Shane: “I’m okay…I’m sick of seeing the same things every day but I’ll be free in exactly 12 hours and 27 minutes. Alice will pick me up.”