LAST NIGHT: TINA’S POV

Just as she grazes my lips with hers and I feel her breath on me she turns me around again. I guess she knew better than me that it was getting steamy. Ok I was wrong, her hands are traveling now. “God, don’t stop.” I think I whisper. I think she heard me. Her hands are traveling upward s towards my breast and she cups them briefly, but long enough to me throw every single care I have put of the window to have her. Her breath is getting shorter as we continue to grind to this song. God how long has it been anyway? Then I hear her moan. Or is that me? In any case the song sounds like it’s changing again. Only we haven’t stopped our dance that we’ve created from drunken lust for one another.

“Hey Bette?” I say just above a whisper. That sentence was the challenge of a lifetime.

“Yes, Tina?” The only reason I hear her is because her mouth is just by my ear.

“We should stop.”

“We should stop.” she sighed. I sighed. “But I want this. I want you.”

“God, I’m so wet right now.” Did I just say that? I heard me say it. But I don’t think I said it.

“Me too.” Yep. I said it. “You wanna get out of here?”

“Me too.” is all I can say after her declaration. I did want her. Then and now, but at what cost. “But it’s already cost us too much.”

“What do you mean?”

“This, all of this. Look at this floor.” a preview of my friend’s jealous insanity. “It’s already cost me too much.” with that said, I couldn’t let her know that being with her would cost me more than a broken dish.

“You mean Grace?” Bingo.

“What does she want from you Tina?”

“You.” Grace saw it last night. Even through a drunken haze that Bette wants me not her. That’s what’s killing her. The straight friend swoops in and steals the girl that she been fantasizing about since Alice showed her a picture months ago.

“Don’t you understand Bette? I would never do that to a friend. Especially my best friend.” It’s true I said it last night, but it hurts more now. In the clear light of day that I would betray Grace. A woman who has been my protector and true sister for all these years. And as crazy as she seems now, she’s been nothing but loyal to me since we met. I at least owe her that much.