previously…. how long should i stay? carmen-mmm….how long do you need? ****

cris smoothes her hands over carmens curves, carmen pulls cris’ hair, cris moans.  carmen smiles into the kiss, she starts walking backwards but stops when she hears the doorbell. carmen sighs.

cris-are you gonna that?

carmen- i- i dont want to…

cris- go, hurry.

carmen rolls her eyes and jogs to the door, cris hears her open the door and listens. she hears the man trying to sell her something. she laughs and looks around. she notices that the house looks exactly the same as before. she looks towards the stairs and looks to make sure carmen is still preoccupied by the door. she reaches the top of the stairs and heads to what she hoped was still carmens room she walked in and saw the familiar vanity and the pictures that laced the edges of the mirror, she noticed the room had been painted a purple blue color, cris sees a cd player across the room but sticks her head out the door to make sure carmen still wasnt coming.  she walked over to the cd player and picked up a cd case and thumbs through looking for a particular album. she finds the pussycat dolls and places it in the player, she skips tracks to the fifth, she hears the beat and turns it up just loud enough to where she knows carmen can hear.

by this time carmen has gotten rid of solicitor and is heading upstairs following the music, she peaks her head inside her room seeing cris sitting at her vanity looking at her pictures and rocking light to the beat. carmen- hey sexy, what are you doing? cris- reminiscing…how did you get this? carmen-it’s from a magazine, i cut it out not too long after you left. back when i thought you we’re coming back cris- i called you…like twice. carmen-only twice becuase i know i wrote you like a hundred times. cris- i know, i have them all. carmen- yeah, im sure you we’re…busy. cris- are we still talking about not calling? carmen-no…. cris bites her tongue

cris- then what are we talking about? carmen- why didnt you come back when you siad you were going to? cris- i did… carmen-what?

carmen looked confused but waited for an answer. cris looked at her feet and carmen put a hand on either side of cris’ face and lifted her head and forced her to look at her. cris licked her lips and opened her mouth waiting for word to come out. cris- carmen, i’ve been here for almost six months carmen dropped her hand and backed up to sit on her bed, she looked down and folded her arms across her stomach and fought back tears that we’re too stong to contain. cris stared at her for a minute, then decided to stand up she didnt move. when she finally did she walked over in front of carmen and got on her knees so she was eye level with the latina although she didnt know what to say she put her hands on carmen’s lap and leaned forward to kiss her forehead. carmen sniffed. cris- carmen, im sorry. carmen wiped her eyes and looked into the eyes of the woman in front of her, the dark green mixed with blue. carmen- sorry for what? cris- (sighs) everything, but mostly for the fact that i’m making you cry. baby i just dont know what to do. i was too stupid to come find you.  i was free but, i dont want want to be anymore. i didnt know what it was i wanted until i saw you last night. and now i dont know what to do. i hate not being in control. carmen- and…. cris laughs and looks at carmens hands which had found their way to hers somewhere during her speech. cris- and……I love you.