God she just needed a little time alone!…She needed to get herself back together…

That question about starting a family had really threw her…She hadn’t expected it….

"But we will discuss it soon, right?" Candace asked.

Bette stopped in the bathroom doorway, and without turning around, she nodded her head yes…

She then closed the door to the bathroom and turned on the shower…The steam soon filled up the room, and Bette took off her robe, and stepped underneath the welcoming hot water…

The minute the water hit her face, Bette’s tears broke completely free… She couldn’t contain her sobs as the memories from her past came rushing to the forefront of her mind for the zillionth time…

God, they had been so happy! – They’d had a great life together! – Her and Tina had first and foremost been terrific friends…They had been so sexually compatible…They had almost everything they could have wished for…Then it all went horribly wrong…

Tina had got pregnant…They were ecstatic…They were finally going to have the family they had always wanted…Always dreamed of…

But then fate dealt the couple a cruel blow…They lost the baby…

After that they never seemed to recover…Their relationship went into a downward spiral….Words were said, words were left unsaid…

Instead of coming closer like they should have in their time of tragedy…They drifted further and further apart…

But then, just when Bette thought things couldn’t get any worse, Tina surprised her, she was pregnant again…

The day Angelica was born was the happiest day in both their lives…

But that didn’t last…Before she knew it, Bette had lost everything.

The memories wouldn’t stop. The images wouldn’t fade. She could still see Angelica’s gorgeous little face, looking up at her, smiling…giggling at her…

Then her mind flashed to thoughts of her ex wife…Her beautiful Tina…

She could picture so vividly that smile that could light up an entire room…

The way Tina arched one eyebrow, and knew it drove Bette crazy….

The way she bit her lip when she was nervous…

The hilarious way she tried to wink…

Bette remembered every single detail about Tina as if she had seen her only yesterday….

And Every time she recalled her ex…Well, her heart hurt a little more…

God, she missed them both, more than even she knew…

She cried now, for the little girl who’s arms she ached to hold…

She cried for the woman her soul positively screamed out for….

She cried for the life she missed so much…. The life she’d trade anything to have back again..