I drove to a bar just a few miles away from home. I didn’t want to go to The Planet, I know I needed to talk but I couldn’t face Kit or the girls right now. Plus I didn’t want a lecture on drinking at four in the afternoon. I sat at the bar and ordered my first drink and downed it and ordered another. They were right, they were all right. The funny part is, I’m not heartbroken over her. I could feel someone behind me and I downed my drink and ordered another.

"It’s too early to be drinking."

"Yeah well, it’s your fault," I signed, turning my stool to face her, she stepped back.

"I’m sorry, I didn’t mean for you to find out this way," she said and signed.

"How long have you been cheating on me?"

"A year maybe. I’m sorry, I can’t control myself."

"Wow. Then why were you with me? Why did you waste my time and yours?"

"Because despite it all, I love you."

"You have a truly fucked up sense of what love is."

"Why are you so calm? Yell, scream, do something!"

"I’m beyond that. You know what’s fucked up? I’m not even sad about the end of us. I’m sad that you’ve royally screwed my chance at being a mother. There’s no way this girl will adopt to just me. You destroyed everything that meant anything to me."

"Bette I’m sorry. This whole thing with the adoption happened so fast. Too fast. I thought we’d be waiting a while. I’m just not ready to be a mother."

"Just go. I will expect all of your shit out of my house by the end of the week. Take that fucking disgusting bed out of my room too."

I turned my stool around and I drank my drink. She finally left after a few seconds, there was no way she was slithering her way back into my good graces.

I kept drinking for another hour, I had a good buzz going on when my phone started ringing, it was Shane. I rejected the call and kept drinking. The bartender tried making conversation but I didn’t really want to talk to anyone. About a half hour later, I felt a hand on my shoulder. I looked up as Shane sat on the stool next to me. She ordered a drink and sat silently. She sipped her drink after the bartender dropped it off. She smiled and flushed after Shane handed her the money and mumbled a thanks baby and winked. I shook my head.