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    Story written on February 14, 2006 by TMerlin.
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    Story Shortlink: https://lesfan.com/?p=59581
    Author Notes:

    The story picks up toward the end of season 3.

     

    SHANE-  “What’s over?”

     

    ALICE-  “Her and Tina.”

     

    SHANE- (She looks at Bettebut addresses Alice)  “Well, I don’t know Al.”

     

    ALICE-  “You don’t KNOW?!!!  What do you NOT KNOW????  Has everybody just gone insane?”

     

    SHANE-  “Alice, a lot has gone down tonight and a lot has happened in the past few months.  I had a feeling that Tina still loved Bette, I think maybe we all did.  But”

     

    ALICE-  “NOShaneshe said she’s still “IN-love” with her.that’s ‘IN-love’ Shanenot just that she loves hershe’s IN-love with her.  I wasn’t there but that’s what Kit saidis she wrong?  Did Tina not say that?”

     

    SHANE-  “Yeah, she did.”

     

    ALICE-  (Getting anxious and a little intense)  “So what am I missing?  I know love sometimes isn’t enough, but if you’re IN-love, that’s itthat’s just itthere’s no practical aspect here that just overrides everythingshe said IN-love.that’s itthat settles it.”   (She walks up to Bette, stands in front of her, then kneels and grasps her hands.  Her voice is cracking)  “Don’t you dare give up.  You have this love and have the opportunity to fix itdon’t wait, don’t wait until it’s too lateplease Bette”  (Bette puts her hands on Alice‘s face, knowing that Alice is thinking of the lover she lost recently, the friend they had all lost to illness.)  “I’m sorry, I know it’s none of my business, but”

     

    BETTE-  “Al, I know what you’re saying.  But I can’tI just can’tI can’t live like this anymore.  My heart belonged to her and her heart was mine, but things went horribly wrong and I lost her.  I didn’t give up but in the end we got back together and it seems like it was only for me to lose her all over againnot because I betrayed her this time, but because her heart became lost to me, to us, and she fell out of love right before me, every day, little by little and there was nothing I could do.  If I hurt her once, as I did so terribly when I betrayed her, she proceeded after Angelica’s birth to hurt me tenfold.  It would have been easier if she had betrayed me in the same way I had hurt her, because that was just a symptomI never fell in love with anyone else and though I had struggled with it at one time, I never really fell out of love with her.  I betrayed her that time, but her heart has betrayed me nowbefore tonight.  Everything we said today to each other was more than we have said in several months.  All the touching we did tonight was more than all the touches we shared these past months.  And all this, in this one span of time tonight, and then she hits her head and says while drifting in and out of consciousness the words I yearned to hear for months.  I don’t knowI still don’t know if I could live without her in my life.  Right now I justAl, it hurts so muchit’s like I had to watch her walk out of my life, our life together, in slow motion.  And she was prepared to take Angelica away”

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    2. This story was incredible (and that word doesn’t even suffice). It almost brought me to tears. If B&T’s actual journey even came close to the way this one is written, I would think IC was a genius.

    4. when i read the first half, my heart broke into a million little pieces and i couldn’t breath, i’m completely downtrodden now. and then i started reading the alice/shane/bette part and it was still heartbreaking, but also funny at times and it was kind of a tears and laughter moment for me. and then the tina/kit and bette/shane stuff, it’s so sad and yet it gives me hope… outstanding writing, thanks a lot! hope you can post more!

    7. This was just excellent! Bette’s desperation and Tina’s fury were completely believable. I can’t tell you how much I hate the ep12 spoilers, if only they would play out this way.

    8. mnj33pp here, my mouth is still open and the tears are still there. That was absolutly amazing no not amazing, i truly can’t find a word to discribe what i’m feeling right now. The way you guys write, the feelings the emotions OMG, i’m speechless. Thank you, Thank you

    12. TMerlin…You are truly are a magician as your namesake would imply. You have to send your incredible story to IC. The words, the dialogue, the emotions, everything about it was phenomenal. They could base all of S4 using this story as the first episode. You can tell how amazing it is b/c when I signed on there were about 850 viewings. I don’t know if you can continue but please try.

    14. this was awesome!! i love all of the ‘psychobabble’ because this is a very deep and complex love….i love how in your story their friends actually lend words of wisdom and tina and bette actually listen to them. hey there’s a concept…please send a copy to IC. show her what real processing is.

    18. Amazing, absolutely astounding. I am left here at work in awe of your writing. You are truly talented. I hope that you will continue this story, please we would like to see them patch things up. Tina and Bette are such great soul mates, I am just relieved that a REAL TALENTED WRITER could bring the truth out in these characters. Seriously, I hope IC reads this and see what a real writer can do. I am so speechless, I will be thinking about your story for days.(I will probably stop watching the show just to read your beautifully written stories.)You have so much passion and depth in your writing, you moved us all. LOVED IT!!

    19. Absolutely wonderful as usual. I sure hope there is another chapter on it’s way. I just have this need for closure with these two. One way or the other, since so far, the show hasn’t provided us anything in two years. Your depth is incredible with these two characters. Very nice job!

    20. wow i’m in awe of your work right now. i’m so glad your making such sense of tibette. can i just how much i love the framily’s involvement and wish so much it could be like this on the show. love it.

    26. GOD DAMN TMerlin this was fucking awesome!!! Do you have anymore pages up your sleeve at this point because I would gladly put the rest of my days activities on hold to read them. I luv how you had Shane talk to Bette because really at this point I think everyone wants to beat the shit out of Bette & Tina so they can wake up and see that they love each other.

    29. OMFG, OMFG…if I were a writer I would have all these amazing words to put down in this comment box so that you would know what power you stories have. All I have to see is TMerlin and I’m salivating…the best thing other than the content is the length, you never leave us hanging..you give us the full meal deal and that means a lot to a reader. I swear I was holding my breath thru the entire 10pgs and that’s about the right length before I pass out…see I told you I was no writer..but I hope you get my point….Don’t know why this came up an anonymous…it’s me Honda90

    32. Wow, that was so powerful TMerlin. What a perfect episode 1, season 4 that would make. It certainly would fill the drama quotient for a season. These two women are bound together by a strong love…now they just have to recognize it for themselves.

    36. Absolutely awesome! I feel absolutely wrung out. Don’t know whether you plan to continue with this story, but it would be incredible if you could take us further and in a hopeful direction. Terrific.

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