The drive home was nicethe breeze against Bettes face made it seem possible to feel relaxed. After a few days off work Bette was back. She convinced the board she was getting helpBette lied. The doctors stopped bugging her after a while, though Bette did go to the clinic where the nurse kept on needling her with questions. However Bette managed to dig deep in herselfa hole..and hide her feeling in it. She worked out.and constantly looked behind her shoulder. James was wary around her because Bette picked her way around him and flinched when he touched her shoulder, lashing out character assassinating.
Night though was a different matterfor hours in bed Bette bit her pillow and curled up in a ball. Cold sweat dripped from her forehead and she left every light on. When she did finally fall asleep Bette dreamt dreadful nightmares.daddy was around every corner it felt likeand when Bette walked she did so with every muscle in her body tense.
Tina called a few times a weekalways asking about herbut with a subdued kind of voiceBette wondered what was up with herbut didnt ask. Tina seemed to be getting along fine without heron the rare days she did go to the planet Bette found out from the gang that Tina was dating that Nathan. Bette nodded smiled went home and punched the mirror until only shards were left. However she kept contact with the gang at a minimumshe wanted to be alone.
Now on her drive home Bette felt a little betterthough she kept having a flashback where she was at a hospital and she saw TinaBette did not remember anything from the hospital at all..did Tina even visit her??…who knows.
Pulling in her driveway Bette got out and checked the mailno mailsighs. She opened the door to her house and nearly died of shock.Tina theresitting at her table looking through the mailTina looked up and smiled and stood up. Bette thought she would faint, T was beautiful. Tina started to speak
.hi Bette..i was checking up on-
Before she could speak any further Bette stepped closer and put her finger to Ts lips
.shhhhh
Tina gazed into Bette’s eyeswhich her sad full of longingand scared
All the experiences up until nowall the feelings washed away and what was left were two women who did love each other and did need each otherfor one moment everything was forgotten.
Tina put her arms around Bette and sighed into her shoulder, choking back a mountain of tears. Bette rested her hands on Tinas waist and literally melted from so much feeling. Bette felt her knees buckling and both of them sank to the dining room floor. Tina forgot about Bettes rejection her cheating her selfishness her past coldness her rage her hurt her pain and rested her forehead on the base of Bettes neck. They were like this for agesuntil T very lightly kissed Bettes neck , smelled her scent and kissed her jawshe felt Bette move her hands to Tinas shoulders squeezing releasing squeezing again. Bette looked into Ts eyes and moved her head forwardT met her with the force of Titanssuddenly both were tearing at each others clothesfrantic to feel somethingsomething! Bette was on her back and T straddled her hips, her hands on Bettes thighs feeling her muscles underneath the silk pants. Soon both of them were side by sideTina behind hertheir clothes still on. Tinas hands were frantically feeling Bettes chest and stomach, she slipped her hands under Bettes shirt and felt her jump.Tina then put her hand in Bettes pants and felt her for the first time in months.Tina licked Bettes neck her hair in Tinas mouth along with her sweat her scent.Bette was hold on to the kitchen chair barely breathing barely able to breathsuddenly she felt Tina bite her neck not hard but enough for daddy to come lurkingdaddy dug his way through Bettes grave for him and danced in front of her..
Tina felt Bette jump practically three feet. Startled Tina squirmed back. Bette was curling up in a ball weeping.Tina put her hand, still wet with Bettes juices, on her shoulder and shook her lightly.BetteBettewhats wrong?? Bette only whispered.hold me.Tina please hold me..
For the next few hours they held hands and lay together on that dining room table, side by side looking up at the starless ceiling like two engravings. They fed each other pieces of food and still sat, crawling to the fridge and back sharing liquid and morsels. Neither had the desire and each hoped the other would not suggest *****.they only waited trying to grasp on to that feeling they shared so brieflybut of course the old feelings crept back
Bette filled with demons and daddy and rejection and sadness..outwardly trying to compose herself
.Tina confused.wanting but knowing she should stop.
Eventually Tina looked at Bette and said-
..we need to talk.Bette I know you have been through so much I know I hurt you by leavingbut Betteyou cheated on mewhat did you expect me to do?…I left and you went crazy I gave you a chance then you shut down then you get into a jealous rage and the then you tried to kill yourselfBette you need helpand I am willing to help you in getting that help and as for NathanBette im dating him ok? (Tina looked into Bettes eyes and saw hate pits in there, love strong enough to turn into hate)but.this was a mistake we cant go backwardsbefore we even THINK of getting back together we need to work out the problems we had before you cheatedwith her.Bette?
Bette was quiet, looking downshe was barely composed and Tina talking like was tipping her dangerously again. She looked up, looked down then stayed looking down.expressing herself was never ever easy.
.ok.Tina.I want to tell youafter you found out about Candace.I never slept with her again after that.I love youI cant express myself wellim going through a hard time becausebecause.-Bette was cut off by a cracking pain on her headTina smacked her again and Bette curled up in a balltrying to protect her head..(daddy)Tina yelled I SAW HER TOUCH YOU YOU LIAR YOU LIAR!!…Tina raised her hand again while Bette started to cry.