Today I would like to talk about your relationship with TinaHow long have you been together?

Seven yearsthen we broke upthen we got back together…

And why did you break up in the first place?

None of your business.wellactually I cheated on her, there I said it now you can hate me…hehand now were back together, but we never talk about anything, I mean she came back I guess to take care of me she came back, I mean things seem to be doing well.

So she came back but didnt say why?

Nono not like that, just sort of like she knew that I couldnt live without her that without her im a mess and bad things happenim not myself you see, and when I am, I try not to be but I can be kinda self-centeredthats what she says anyway.

Self-centeredin terms of work or

Both…both…you see I have a very stressful job and when I come home I dont want to tiptoe around thinking did I hurt her feelings? Blah blah blahI mean I want to be naturaland it is sometimes butit isnt normal you know what I mean?

No Bette I dont

I mean that she sort of tiptoes around me like shes scared that Ill freak out…and ..andwe havent made love since we broke up because I get flashbacks and have to stop before it gets anywhereI know shes frustrated but trying to be patient and we fight over little things like I dont knowand we havent even talked about why we broke upits silly really

And why not?

It never seems to be the right time.she just tiptoes around me you know

Are you planning to make time to talk about it?

Of course I mean I cant stand thisin fact I was going to talk todayseriously too..

Bette what the understanding that I am getting from you is that everything in your relationship with Tinaright now..is all on your time. I know you have been through a great deal but Tina as your realizing is human too and needs to have these issues addressed sometime. I suggest that you let her leadbring it up but try to make sure its not all on your time

Driving home from the session Bette got to thinking. Leila was right, everything was on Bettes time.her whole relationship was on her time. She decided when they could attempt to have *****, when it was right to talk about thingsand when they should stop anything. How must Tina feel? And Candacerolling her eyes Bette regretted the day that woman walked in her life.
Wincing Bette thought about a few nights ago when they almost got therethey almost got there. They were kissingjust kissing for minutes and minutes until Bette slipped her hand under Tinas shirt and she breathlessly asked her to do the same. Tina looked at her and did it very slowlywaiting for Bette to say anythingany cue. Instead Bette pushed herself on top of Tina pulled her shirt off..they were skin to skinGod it felt like blissthey just lay there feeling the symbiosis of their joining. Tina began to stroke Bettes back up and down feeling her muscles. Bette was licking her necktasting the coming sweat, their love medicine grew warm and hot and that familiar musky scent began to rise. Bette kissed Tina all the way down to her breaststaking them in her mouth and tongue Tinas hand on Bettes neckholding her closer. And then it happened.Bette was not even thinking about anything except T. Later she wondered why it kept coming backshe wasnt think about anything!! Well Bette was supporting herself over T and was about to go lower when a flashback flew into her mindand this time she was not the brunt of daddys sexual wrathshe WAS daddy she in power over T laying there and she was gonna hurt her she was gonna suffocate T with a pillowover and over and over again. It only last for a micro-second but Bette pushed herself off T and started banging the bed..crying and shouting in frustration. Tina tried to comfort her but Bette locked herself in the bathroomtaking a long shower and hating herself..she was stupid stupid stupid.
And so Bette drove hometrying to drive away those feelingstrying to think of a way to talk to T..they had to talk sometime I mean things were getting ridiculous. She was driving around the corner of the park when Bette saw something that stopped her cold and made her screech to the curb..flying out in a hot rage. Tina sitting thereby the fountain…with Nathanwith Nathan.Tina rubbing his backwith Nathan. Bette quickly stomped over there and before they even noticed she was there and grabbed Tinas armshe yanked hard and T flew over to her crying out in pain. Nathan stood and started to towards themBette turn around and gave him a look that stopped Nathan in his tracks.dont ever talk to Tina gain.if you do Ill cut your ***** off and stick it up your *****.Tina gaped in shock and scared at herNathan turned around and leftfast. Bette actually saw the anger creep into Tinadifferent shades of red tinged her face until with hands in fists she began to yell
GODDAMMIT WHAT THE ***** DID U JUST DO BETTE!! WE WERE JUST TALKING! HIS FATHER DIED AND I WAS COMFORTING HIM WE WERENT DOING ANYTHING WHAT THE ***** IS WRONG WITH YOU!!!??….Tina put her hand to her forehead then looked again at Bettewho was standing there mouth open.Bette I cant do this anymore, you are such a hypocriteyou cheated on me with another woman and you dare act like this, now you know how I felt but it cant be this way Bette we cant go around pretending everything is gonna be okwe cant even have *****..im frustrated Bette sexually frustrated and im willing to wait for you but its gratingim human I can help but feel frustratedand for Christs sake you need to work out your people skillsjustBette took a step forward her hand about touch TinaNo Bette dont touch meim going homesee you laterim making lasagna tonightbe home on time…with that Tina walked away.
Bette clenched her hands onto her hair and watched Tina go. She didnt go after hershe felt helplesshurt and worthless in the face of Tinas anger. Everything ran through her nerves and it hurtlike cold cold sniggers that laughed at Betteshe wasnt good enough..no no no nothe exercises Leila taught her flew right out of the window. Anger at everything anger at daddy at herself at Tina at Leila at work at the whole ***** world and all the little ***** people in itBette whipped around and let loose her fists onto to the first treean maple tree with thick barkchips flew as Bette pounded the thickness of it ***** everything ***** everything ***** everythingit was only one the way home that Bette noticed her broken bloody knuckles

whimpering she walked into the houseeverything she touched seemed to fail.